I think nobody comes here anymore hmm. Haha. I kept this place, not because i want to embarrass myself or whatsoever, but i'm in the phase when i'm facing, my true self. Even with that dumb despo irritating girl i used to be. Just look at the way i type! Gah. Well, happy laughing. Hahaha. I wished i had posted more memories during second half of the year though. More, meaningful ones. Which is why i still post now. I like to write. :) Yeah yeah you'd say i am good at expressing myself with words, but do you realise they just came straight from my (broken and shattered and punctured) heart? Words are nothing if not true. And i was reminded of this ytd,


Crying is a display of courage.

Hohohoho means i can cry more. ._. I'm dreading math tuition l8r. Alright, maybe i should try and, go to sleep. And not think anymore.. For now.


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I would have used blogger if that url was available, and not stagnant, since like, 2006?!
Don't do anything that would leave you regrets.

this post took abit long...
HAPPY 100TH POST MY DEAR BLOG! :D
okay maybe it might not be alot but its a nice no. huh ;) hahas i was jus tokin to sherlyn abt organising a fahrion christmas celebration! we'll hav christmas carols singing competition, ple will wear costumes related to christmas, there will be gift exchange & prizes will be CANDY CANES :DD hahas but we dunno whr to hav the celebration, soo everybody go brainstorm! if you hav any ideas, go post it on ur own blog, tag mine, sherlyn's or class blog OKAY!

hahas enough digression bk to my 100th post thing (: since its one hundred; its special, so i shall say THANKYOU to ple(again, but this time got more :)! first will be grps of ple, then individuals will be in alphabetical order! forgive me if i digress sometimes cos there's too much to write :X


maureen;
thankyou for always supporting me yah? even tho you may not agree with wad i wanna do.. rmb tt time i called you and told you abt tt thing? & you told me if i really wanna do it, jus dont regret it? it sure helped alot (: and thankyou for nvr leaveing me alone!

angela;
you're one of the big jiejie i look up to(: one of the few veh faithful ple whom i noe xD you gave me support& assurance when i needed them(: thankyou for those times when you stayed bk aft sch to accompany me, & also not to forget, thankyou for coming to sch to accompany me watch interclass :D

gillian;
CHIO BU xD once my best tongzhuo & always my best tongzhuo (: you're one of the first ple i noe in dunman high yah? hahs sometimes the advice you give are quite gd! thankyou for those jokes from you, tt brought me a huge amt of laughter (: there are still many many traces of ur writing in my handbk x) thankyou for being my longest friend!

nzh;
ok i had to change ur initial to make a nicer word ;) SHUAI GE, you're shuai but learn to be more humble yah? got to noe you becos of sumei & sy x) boy i must thank sumei arh! for you are a super gd & nice friend (: thankyou for tolerating my bad temper, the times when i fa pi qi at you :X thankyou for being understanding & thankyou for consoling me at times (: & i'll thankyou in advance for my udon and lollie xD

eunice;
i hav alot of things to say but i suddenly dunno wad to say lol /: i guess jus thank you for everything you've done for me. which is alotalotalot (: hahas we can tok abt everything tt we wont hang up the fone unless either of us needs to go xD seriously, thankyou for being eunice
cos I LOVE EUNICE(A) :DDD

tongwei;
ahh lovelaye tongwei! thankyou for going hme & staying bk to study with me during a period of time (&thank me for waiting for you to finish MSP x) hey ple dont be fooled by her angelic appearance cos you nvr noe wad she's thinking! LOL jkjk tongwei's an ANGEL (: thankgod for this angel!

MY FAMILY
junjie daddy;
hahas its a wonder how someone i bu shuang with can eventually become my daddy arh? rmb the first time i smsed you with tongwei's fone? HAHAHA tt was funny! i esp like it when you call me gd girl lol. i mean seriously (: thankyou for being a uber cute daddy xD & thankyou for toking me at nite even when you're quite tired (dont deny i noe it :) THANKYOU!

junhao uncle;
when i felt like breaking dwn, when the world seems to be tearing apart, when i din noe who to turn to; you were there for me, giving me hope & helping me carry on (: thankyou for being daddy's bro; he is lucky to hav sucha nice bro like you! thankyou for tellin me not to reply you when im walking on the road hahas (:

shouyi gor;
i nvr nvr regretted askin you to be my gor. even tho i can hardly rmb why i suddenly did tt lol :X becos of you, i got to noe alot alot of ple (cos basically you noe at least one person frm each class, & most of them are girls .-) NICE PLE frm your class (: seriously if you werent my gor, my 2nd half of the yr in dhs would hav a 360 degrees turn. it would totally different without you. no matter how many times you said tt i was fat& short, no matter wad our seniors say, no matter how many times you din reply my email, no matter how much he/she was more important to you, you will always be my gor. always always will be (:

diane jie;
my favourite senior :D thankyou for smsing me during lessons :X i cant imagine how boring it wud be without toking to you xD thankyou for being tt big jiejie who gives great advices & is always encouraging me! your great passion for singing has influenced me alot, so dont giveup singing when you're in australia! no matter how much i wish you would stay :X, gd luck in trinity (:

shikai di;
you hav soo many nicknames (given by me x) hahas we used to tok alotalot, but things hav changed a lil. i've alr predicted tt but i guess, its gd for you yah? hah who was the one who insisted he wouldnt drift apart? :X no matter wad, you'll always be my di & my best friend. &nonetheless, i want to remind you tt YOU CAN DO IT. have more faith in yourself & dont stress urself too much. work hard for wadever you wanna achieve, the rest, jus let nature take its course ;)

denise mei;
thankyou for consoling me (you eventually started crying urself :X paiseh) sometimes i guess jus dont take things too hard ba.. if its predestinated (i dunno can use here ornot :X) then there's nth you can do but to accept it rite? learn from setbacks, improve on them & move on. believe in yourself (:

HONEH :D
none other then CASLYN CHOW LIYING!
i may hav thanked you before but you've done so much i cant thank you enough!
guess wad, i din noe tt 'caslyn' & 'liying' was the same person you noe xD until... until... someone told me i cant rmb who :X anyways you're soo lovable! ple who dunno how to appreciate you got a screw loose in their head ;) seriously i tink you've done alot for ur class yah? thankyou for lending me a helping hand, thankyou for encouraging me & thankyou for loving me :D
face it with a smile (:

CHOIR PEEPS
kasey; jane; zhiting; qinghui; zi xuan;
THANKYOU ALL FOR BEING GREAT FRIENDS & LOVE YA ALL! SEC ONE CHOIR MEMBERS ROCKS :D

BAKERY (sry i left you all out xO)
sara;
our great class chair :D you're veh nice (to me!) i havent pay you e nasi lemak money yet :X anyways, i wanna say sorry... cos i dont really tell you stuff :X esp aft i realised wad i tink is important may not be the same to others :( if you get wad i mean... sorry & thankyou!

charlene;
i love KITKAT LOL actually e thing is i dont like kitkat xD well well our lovely girl with BIG BIG pretty eyes! ahh im jealous x) great friend, great tongzhuo for 2nd half, I LOVE YOU!

valerie;
hey vale! hahas i tink she's quite innocent :D prim & proper & everything yah. tho sometimes she & gill get into cat fights, which is actually most of the time xD anyways YOU GO GIRL!

cheryl&nien an;
two lovely girls (: veh nice ple. thankyou!

cynthia&leeying;
veh unique, esp leeying (: rmb tt time you two chased me round&round in the canteen lol? hahas thankyou for being a nice friend!

elizabeth, sherlyn&sumei;
ahh san ge DA MEI NU :D baybeh you three puts a smile on my face! thankyou!

glada;
cutee&hardworking lil girl who always let sy bully >: hahas thnx for the peanuts! &i sure was glad tt i had ur company when i came bk to sch alone frm tts (: thankyou for being there!

kajun;
funny guy(: hahas i like ur attitude x) thankyou for not dao-ing me on msn!

louis;
hey twin! waseh its really great to noe someone who has the same birthday as me! well well i wont thank you for pulling my hair & saying tt im fat x( lol thankyou for being a great senior!

matthew;
my lunchmate. you nvr rejected me when i din wan to go eat wif the girls (: even tho being the only girl eating with the 7 dwarves was a lil hard sometimes, i was glad i had you! thankyou so much :D

tzyy shuan;
i must really thank you for doing actually most of the treasurer's work arh? :X sorry tt i wasnt really responsible!

yongjing;
hmm without you my life would minus aways lots of laughter i guess! but jus to remind you, im not ur wife & stop tt irritating jingle (i tink you noe wad im toking abt) >:

zongyi;
you, one funny funny guy(: ahh i love strawberry jam xD




you;
aft all tt has happened, i still think tt i shld thankyou. even tho sometimes i honestly wish i can hate you, i didnt. i couldnt bring myself to.. i can still rmb & i always will rmb, those happy times we shared, they will always be kept here -> Y i thank you, for once being my veh gd friend, for helping me grow up, for all the laughter & tears we shared. our relationship started with a guy, but it didnt end with another guy. it ended with us (or maybe it hasnt...?) if time can heal wounds, may we become friends again...

&you;
thinking bk, all major hartaches were caused by you :X those tears i shed for you could probably fill a lake. nevertheless, i nvr regretted knowing you, no matter how much you may detest me... you are veh special; among all the stars i've seen in the sky, you are one of the brightest (: tho we arent exactly friends
zhu ni xin fu...





OHYAY finally done! :D boy im delighted! i tink im changing link soon... LOVEEEES!

well well
the wkends were an all-cousies wkend (:
sat: went to HIDE AND SEEK with kitty & friends exhibition at the Arts House; somewhr near Victoria Concert Hall(: everywhere was HELLO KITTY! it was an exhibition whr pictures drawn by artists all over the world, with the main theme of hello kitty, was being put up, one of them was drawn by a famous french artist named Genevieve gaukler!!! LOL but sadly photography wasnt allowed anywhr soo i couldnt get any photos D: aft tt we went suntec carefour, hehe we tried almost every single sample & cos sushi was offer we got four box, each for one of us xD den my dad came to pick us up to go bk to my granny's for dinner. guess wad, we were all soo full we hardly ate; my granny & aunt were scolding us like hell :X den we played monopoly & PS2 until 2.30am x)

sun: KBOX at marina sq! wahlaoeh it was damn COLD :X my hands were all numb! i was e one singing most of the time tho, as in holding the mic ;) LOL but it was totally funn! i suddenly realised how bad my singing was :X

anyways
upcoming lovely plans:D
;go liying honeh's hse do hw
;go mummy's hse
;go shopping! with mummy
;learn how to make SUSHI
;go shoppin with cousie priscilla when she comes bk
;go malaysia shoppin
;celebrate christmas with liying honeh!
;finish hw

tts all for now! lovelaye arh (: hugs&kisses to everybody!

ps. THANKYOU DADDY FOR FINALLY TAGGIN xD

my mum forced me to take out da hotpink leggings i was wearin the whole morning lol xD guess i was tryin to c how the new fashion wud look on me ba... wanted to take a picture but no one was willing to be my photographer :(

went to orchard, mainly far east plaza ytd. walked until ma feet was aching lyk siao man :X saw bevie(: waseh dwn there e stuff rite, almost all the same one leh LOL soo can you imagine seeing the same stuff over and over and over again DD: saw tis 2 salegirls in one shop, wearing cosplay costumes; those type veh kua zhang one O.O i bot tis red hairband with white polkadots :D made me look a lil like some minnie mouse x)

soon i will change link... for the new yr (: i've alr finished makin the skin i'll be using :DD ohya and its 35 more days till sch reopen!!! YIPPEE :DDD but i miss the tanjong rhu campus... alotalotalot! but i havent finished hw LOL dont feel like doing :X

kk now shall ans the question maureen posted on her blog
"would you feel sad if you like someone but he dont like you?"
of cos will sad lah, unless you dont like him luh.. LOL find another, who dowan to? its not easy; i mean if you really like tt person, it wont be soo easy to giveup luh... but jus dont hope tt he will like you bk lah... as long as he's happy, den you happy; liddat is enough le luh
[我想爱情就是，受了十次的伤害，只为了他一次的微笑，就能够充电，这样延续下去...]
-YES93.3 幸福小信箱

i want da colorful LOLLIE! im hoping daddy would surprise me with a lollie on da first day of sch lol... but i dont tink tts veh likely to happen... nvm its okay to dream (:





daddy & mummy:
do you still love me like you used to?

phew
i finally told my dad, last night. he came bk & said he wanted to tok to me O_O i was stunned. den he asked if i felt sad at times tt he doesnt allow me to go out wif my friends, of cos i said yes. then he started explaining, it soon developed into one of his long long lectures tt are bound to digress from one topic to another lol. he came bk at 10.30 and started toking, all e way until arnd 11.30 i stopped him & told him... he said, "then how? i'll kill you meh? tts why i dont understand why u always want to buy new fones..." then he soon digressed and toked all e way until 1.30 .- heh my mum was complaining tt he veh long-winded

TO ANGELA:
hey you dont have to feel guilty cos its not ur fault! i was careless to put my fone in my shallow pocket knowing that it may drop yah? i noe you had to rush for piano, if not in the first place i wouldnt hav agreed to take a taxi rite? haiis i was stupid enough not to think of askin my mum to get someone frm the chalet to come over and pick us... if not you would be punctual & things wouldnt happen... its all fated and what's done cannot be undone... our friendship's not tt fragile :) dont feel bad abt it alr okay?

lala i guess i would hav to use my veh first fone which is quite lag... hard to sms, no camera & cant play music luhs :X haiis i finally realise how much i love my V3... hopefully nxt yr when my mum's contract end she would be nice enough to get me a fone...? cannot go out also wont die one lah... rite? i mean my friends wont becos of liddat den gen wo jue jiao or something liddat rites :X ifnot what you call friends? BUT charlene if you are celebrating your bday must tell me horh! cos my dad allows me :)

i watched finish lu guang alr!!! okay maybe not. cos disc 15 is still wif ah pao. and i'll only get it when sch reopens :X ahh last epi! i wanna watch the ending DDD: i learnt from the show that you must always believe. when i got bk my EOYs result, i din dare to go hme, but uncle jh gave me courage :) i told myself tt i had to believe. soo i survived it. this time when i lost my fone. aft angela left, honestly i was damn scared. cos quite dark liao.. den i got ye mang zhen so could hardly see :X but i believed. i din dare to tell my dad at first... wanted to ask my mum to buy a 2nd hand V3 fone... but i decided to face it. and believe :) you will when you believe; 只要相信，就会看见幸福禄光