confessionsofthefakedme

2009-06-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

After so long.

2009-02-08T07:03:00.002+08:00

I think nobody comes here anymore hmm. Haha. I kept this place, not because i want to embarrass myself or whatsoever, but i'm in the phase when i'm facing, my true self. Even with that dumb despo irritating girl i used to be. Just look at the way i type! Gah. Well, happy laughing. Hahaha. I wished i had posted more memories during second half of the year though. More, meaningful ones. Which is why i still post now. I like to write. :) Yeah yeah you'd say i am good at expressing myself with words, but do you realise they just came straight from my (broken and shattered and punctured) heart? Words are nothing if not true. And i was reminded of this ytd,

Crying is a display of courage.

Hohohoho means i can cry more. ._. I'm dreading math tuition l8r. Alright, maybe i should try and, go to sleep. And not think anymore.. For now.

laydee-.blogspot (2007-2009)
beautifulsolitude.tumblr (now)

I would have used blogger if that url was available, and not stagnant, since like, 2006?!
Don't do anything that would leave you regrets.

2006-12-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

*edited*

this post took abit long...
HAPPY 100TH POST MY DEAR BLOG! :D
okay maybe it might not be alot but its a nice no. huh ;) hahas i was jus tokin to sherlyn abt organising a fahrion christmas celebration! we'll hav christmas carols singing competition, ple will wear costumes related to christmas, there will be gift exchange & prizes will be CANDY CANES :DD hahas but we dunno whr to hav the celebration, soo everybody go brainstorm! if you hav any ideas, go post it on ur own blog, tag mine, sherlyn's or class blog OKAY!

hahas enough digression bk to my 100th post thing (: since its one hundred; its special, so i shall say THANKYOU to ple(again, but this time got more :)! first will be grps of ple, then individuals will be in alphabetical order! forgive me if i digress sometimes cos there's too much to write :X

M.A.G.N.E.T. (haha i changed it x)

maureen;
thankyou for always supporting me yah? even tho you may not agree with wad i wanna do.. rmb tt time i called you and told you abt tt thing? & you told me if i really wanna do it, jus dont regret it? it sure helped alot (: and thankyou for nvr leaveing me alone!

angela;
you're one of the big jiejie i look up to(: one of the few veh faithful ple whom i noe xD you gave me support& assurance when i needed them(: thankyou for those times when you stayed bk aft sch to accompany me, & also not to forget, thankyou for coming to sch to accompany me watch interclass :D

gillian;
CHIO BU xD once my best tongzhuo & always my best tongzhuo (: you're one of the first ple i noe in dunman high yah? hahs sometimes the advice you give are quite gd! thankyou for those jokes from you, tt brought me a huge amt of laughter (: there are still many many traces of ur writing in my handbk x) thankyou for being my longest friend!

nzh;
ok i had to change ur initial to make a nicer word ;) SHUAI GE, you're shuai but learn to be more humble yah? got to noe you becos of sumei & sy x) boy i must thank sumei arh! for you are a super gd & nice friend (: thankyou for tolerating my bad temper, the times when i fa pi qi at you :X thankyou for being understanding & thankyou for consoling me at times (: & i'll thankyou in advance for my udon and lollie xD

eunice;
i hav alot of things to say but i suddenly dunno wad to say lol /: i guess jus thank you for everything you've done for me. which is alotalotalot (: hahas we can tok abt everything tt we wont hang up the fone unless either of us needs to go xD seriously, thankyou for being eunice
cos I LOVE EUNICE(A) :DDD

tongwei;
ahh lovelaye tongwei! thankyou for going hme & staying bk to study with me during a period of time (&thank me for waiting for you to finish MSP x) hey ple dont be fooled by her angelic appearance cos you nvr noe wad she's thinking! LOL jkjk tongwei's an ANGEL (: thankgod for this angel!

MY FAMILY
junjie daddy;
hahas its a wonder how someone i bu shuang with can eventually become my daddy arh? rmb the first time i smsed you with tongwei's fone? HAHAHA tt was funny! i esp like it when you call me gd girl lol. i mean seriously (: thankyou for being a uber cute daddy xD & thankyou for toking me at nite even when you're quite tired (dont deny i noe it :) THANKYOU!

junhao uncle;
when i felt like breaking dwn, when the world seems to be tearing apart, when i din noe who to turn to; you were there for me, giving me hope & helping me carry on (: thankyou for being daddy's bro; he is lucky to hav sucha nice bro like you! thankyou for tellin me not to reply you when im walking on the road hahas (:

shouyi gor;
i nvr nvr regretted askin you to be my gor. even tho i can hardly rmb why i suddenly did tt lol :X becos of you, i got to noe alot alot of ple (cos basically you noe at least one person frm each class, & most of them are girls .-) NICE PLE frm your class (: seriously if you werent my gor, my 2nd half of the yr in dhs would hav a 360 degrees turn. it would totally different without you. no matter how many times you said tt i was fat& short, no matter wad our seniors say, no matter how many times you din reply my email, no matter how much he/she was more important to you, you will always be my gor. always always will be (:

diane jie;
my favourite senior :D thankyou for smsing me during lessons :X i cant imagine how ~~boring~~ it wud be without toking to you xD thankyou for being tt big jiejie who gives great advices & is always encouraging me! your great passion for singing has influenced me alot, so dont giveup singing when you're in australia! no matter how much i wish you would stay :X, gd luck in trinity (:

shikai di;
you hav soo many nicknames (given by me x) hahas we used to tok alotalot, but things hav changed a lil. i've alr predicted tt but i guess, its gd for you yah? hah who was the one who insisted he wouldnt drift apart? :X no matter wad, you'll always be my di & my best friend. &nonetheless, i want to remind you tt YOU CAN DO IT. have more faith in yourself & dont stress urself too much. work hard for wadever you wanna achieve, the rest, jus let nature take its course ;)

denise mei;
thankyou for consoling me (you eventually started crying urself :X paiseh) sometimes i guess jus dont take things too hard ba.. if its predestinated (i dunno can use here ornot :X) then there's nth you can do but to accept it rite? learn from setbacks, improve on them & move on. believe in yourself (:

HONEH :D
none other then CASLYN CHOW LIYING!
i may hav thanked you before but you've done so much i cant thank you enough!
guess wad, i din noe tt 'caslyn' & 'liying' was the same person you noe xD until... until... someone told me i cant rmb who :X anyways you're soo lovable! ple who dunno how to appreciate you got a screw loose in their head ;) seriously i tink you've done alot for ur class yah? thankyou for lending me a helping hand, thankyou for encouraging me & thankyou for loving me :D
face it with a smile (:

CHOIR PEEPS
kasey; jane; zhiting; qinghui; zi xuan;
THANKYOU ALL FOR BEING GREAT FRIENDS & LOVE YA ALL! SEC ONE CHOIR MEMBERS ROCKS :D

BAKERY (sry i left you all out xO)
sara;
our great class chair :D you're veh nice (to me!) i havent pay you e nasi lemak money yet :X anyways, i wanna say sorry... cos i dont really tell you stuff :X esp aft i realised wad i tink is important may not be the same to others :( if you get wad i mean... sorry & thankyou!

charlene;
i love KITKAT LOL actually e thing is i dont like kitkat xD well well our lovely girl with BIG BIG pretty eyes! ahh im jealous x) great friend, great tongzhuo for 2nd half, I LOVE YOU!

valerie;
hey vale! hahas i tink she's quite innocent :D prim & proper & everything yah. tho sometimes she & gill get into cat fights, which is actually most of the time xD anyways YOU GO GIRL!

cheryl&nien an;
two lovely girls (: veh nice ple. thankyou!

cynthia&leeying;
veh unique, esp leeying (: rmb tt time you two chased me round&round in the canteen lol? hahas thankyou for being a nice friend!

elizabeth, sherlyn&sumei;
ahh san ge DA MEI NU :D baybeh you three puts a smile on my face! thankyou!

glada;
cutee&hardworking lil girl who always let sy bully >: hahas thnx for the peanuts! &i sure was glad tt i had ur company when i came bk to sch alone frm tts (: thankyou for being there!

kajun;
funny guy(: hahas i like ur attitude x) thankyou for not dao-ing me on msn!

louis;
hey twin! waseh its really great to noe someone who has the same birthday as me! well well i wont thank you for pulling my hair & saying tt im fat x( lol thankyou for being a great senior!

matthew;
my lunchmate. you nvr rejected me when i din wan to go eat wif the girls (: even tho being the only girl eating with the 7 dwarves was a lil hard sometimes, i was glad i had you! thankyou so much :D

tzyy shuan;
i must really thank you for doing actually most of the treasurer's work arh? :X sorry tt i wasnt really responsible!

yongjing;
hmm without you my life would minus aways lots of laughter i guess! but jus to remind you, im not ur wife & stop tt irritating jingle (i tink you noe wad im toking abt) >:

zongyi;
you, one funny funny guy(: ahh i love strawberry jam xD

you;
aft all tt has happened, i still think tt i shld thankyou. even tho sometimes i honestly wish i can hate you, i didnt. i couldnt bring myself to.. i can still rmb & i always will rmb, those happy times we shared, they will always be kept here -> Y i thank you, for once being my veh gd friend, for helping me grow up, for all the laughter & tears we shared. our relationship started with a guy, but it didnt end with another guy. it ended with us (or maybe it hasnt...?) if time can heal wounds, may we become friends again...

&you;
thinking bk, all major hartaches were caused by you :X those tears i shed ~~for you~~ could probably fill a lake. nevertheless, i nvr regretted knowing you, no matter how much you may detest me... you are veh special; among all the stars i've seen in the sky, you are one of the brightest (: tho we arent exactly friends
zhu ni xin fu...

OHYAY finally done! :D boy im delighted! i tink im changing link soon... LOVEEEES!

2006-12-04T10:54:00.000+08:00

well well
the wkends were an all-cousies wkend (:
sat: went to HIDE AND SEEK with kitty & friends exhibition at the Arts House; somewhr near Victoria Concert Hall(: everywhere was HELLO KITTY! it was an exhibition whr pictures drawn by artists all over the world, with the main theme of hello kitty, was being put up, one of them was drawn by a famous french artist named Genevieve gaukler!!! LOL but sadly photography wasnt allowed anywhr soo i couldnt get any photos D: aft tt we went suntec carefour, hehe we tried almost every single sample & cos sushi was offer we got four box, each for one of us xD den my dad came to pick us up to go bk to my granny's for dinner. guess wad, we were all soo full we hardly ate; my granny & aunt were scolding us like hell :X den we played monopoly & PS2 until 2.30am x)

sun: KBOX at marina sq! wahlaoeh it was damn COLD :X my hands were all numb! i was e one singing most of the time tho, as in holding the mic ;) LOL but it was totally funn! i suddenly realised how bad my singing was :X

anyways
upcoming lovely plans:D
;go liying honeh's hse do hw
;go mummy's hse
;go shopping! with mummy
;learn how to make SUSHI
;go shoppin with cousie priscilla when she comes bk
;go malaysia shoppin
;celebrate christmas with liying honeh!
;finish hw

tts all for now! lovelaye arh (: hugs&kisses to everybody!

ps. THANKYOU DADDY FOR FINALLY TAGGIN xD

2006-11-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

my mum forced me to take out da hotpink leggings i was wearin the whole morning lol xD guess i was tryin to c how the new fashion wud look on me ba... wanted to take a picture but no one was willing to be my photographer :(

went to orchard, mainly far east plaza ytd. walked until ma feet was aching lyk siao man :X saw bevie(: waseh dwn there e stuff rite, almost all the same one leh LOL soo can you imagine seeing the same stuff over and over and over again DD: saw tis 2 salegirls in one shop, wearing cosplay costumes; those type veh kua zhang one O.O i bot tis red hairband with white polkadots :D made me look a lil like some minnie mouse x)

soon i will change link... for the new yr (: i've alr finished makin the skin i'll be using :DD ohya and its 35 more days till sch reopen!!! YIPPEE :DDD but i miss the tanjong rhu campus... alotalotalot! but i havent finished hw LOL dont feel like doing :X

kk now shall ans the question maureen posted on her blog
"would you feel sad if you like someone but he dont like you?"
of cos will sad lah, unless you dont like him luh.. LOL find another, who dowan to? its not easy; i mean if you really like tt person, it wont be soo easy to giveup luh... but jus dont hope tt he will like you bk lah... as long as he's happy, den you happy; liddat is enough le luh
[我想爱情就是，受了十次的伤害，只为了他一次的微笑，就能够充电，这样延续下去...]
-YES93.3 幸福小信箱

2006-11-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

i want da colorful LOLLIE! im hoping daddy would surprise me with a lollie on da first day of sch lol... but i dont tink tts veh likely to happen... nvm its okay to dream (:

daddy & mummy:
do you still love me like you used to?

2006-11-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

phew
i finally told my dad, last night. he came bk & said he wanted to tok to me O_O i was stunned. den he asked if i felt sad at times tt he doesnt allow me to go out wif my friends, of cos i said yes. then he started explaining, it soon developed into one of his long long lectures tt are bound to digress from one topic to another lol. he came bk at 10.30 and started toking, all e way until arnd 11.30 i stopped him & told him... he said, "then how? i'll kill you meh? tts why i dont understand why u always want to buy new fones..." then he soon digressed and toked all e way until 1.30 .- heh my mum was complaining tt he veh long-winded

TO ANGELA:
hey you dont have to feel guilty cos its not ur fault! i was careless to put my fone in my shallow pocket knowing that it may drop yah? i noe you had to rush for piano, if not in the first place i wouldnt hav agreed to take a taxi rite? haiis i was stupid enough not to think of askin my mum to get someone frm the chalet to come over and pick us... if not you would be punctual & things wouldnt happen... its all fated and what's done cannot be undone... our friendship's not tt fragile :) dont feel bad abt it alr okay?

lala i guess i would hav to use my veh first fone which is quite lag... hard to sms, no camera & cant play music luhs :X haiis i finally realise how much i love my V3... hopefully nxt yr when my mum's contract end she would be nice enough to get me a fone...? cannot go out also wont die one lah... rite? i mean my friends wont becos of liddat den gen wo jue jiao or something liddat rites :X ifnot what you call friends? BUT charlene if you are celebrating your bday must tell me horh! cos my dad allows me :)

i watched finish lu guang alr!!! okay maybe not. cos disc 15 is still wif ah pao. and i'll only get it when sch reopens :X ahh last epi! i wanna watch the ending DDD: i learnt from the show that you must always believe. when i got bk my EOYs result, i din dare to go hme, but uncle jh gave me courage :) i told myself tt i had to believe. soo i survived it. this time when i lost my fone. aft angela left, honestly i was damn scared. cos quite dark liao.. den i got ye mang zhen so could hardly see :X but i believed. i din dare to tell my dad at first... wanted to ask my mum to buy a 2nd hand V3 fone... but i decided to face it. and believe :) you will when you believe; 只要相信，就会看见幸福禄光

2006-11-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

i lost my fone
line cut off liao..
my dad will kill me when he finds out
im grounded for the rest of da holidays
how better can life get?

2006-11-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

{/ MISS LATE } says:
mummyyyyyyy!

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
hello hello!
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
i tot i give u ur uncle's hotmail le

{/ MISS LATE } says:
whr got
{/ MISS LATE } says:
gimme now~

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
kk

{/ MISS LATE } says:
weird email

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
yeah

{/ MISS LATE } says:
im goin on wed

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
:D
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
yay

{/ MISS LATE } says:
ah pao tagged my blog
{/ MISS LATE } says:
did u c?

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
ya
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
i know u veh happy

{/ MISS LATE } says:
he dun hate u luh
{/ MISS LATE } says:
i asked him abt tt ting alr

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
HE does

{/ MISS LATE } says:
he hardly rmbs

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
huh
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
uncle is online

{/ MISS LATE } says:
whr got
{/ MISS LATE } says:
i dun c him leh :X

uncle junhao (: was added to this conversation. Handwriting is no longer supported because not all participants can view handwritten messages. Handwritten messages will be sent as text.

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
hello!

{/ MISS LATE } says:
hi!

ok says:
oh hi...
ok says:
i know one is euniuce.
ok says:
but the other one...

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
gen

ok says:
?

{/ MISS LATE } says:
me niece!

ok says:
oh niece?
ok says:
hi..nice to meet u here

{/ MISS LATE } says:
(: i jus added u

ok says:
yup..thx
ok says:
wait ar...
it all fell apart says:
hi..i am back
it all fell apart says:
oh...i see 3 ppl and which is u..niece?

{/ MISS LATE } says:
the one in the middle
{/ MISS LATE } says:
(:

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
its too small la

it all fell apart says:
i click on it and it became big liao

{/ MISS LATE } says:
uncle go my blog & tag

it all fell apart says:
then eunice is the left one?

{/ MISS LATE } says:
go my blog! http://confessionsofthefakedme.blogspot.com/

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
eh so pro
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
eh mine also la
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
(:

it all fell apart says:
wat is tag?
it all fell apart says:
haha

{/ MISS LATE } says:
um..
{/ MISS LATE } says:
leave a msg

it all fell apart says:
oh...u have a nice blog!niece!!!

{/ MISS LATE } says:
(:

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! has left the conversation.

it all fell apart says:
umm...but how to tag?

{/ MISS LATE } says:
u scroll dwn & u'll c tis box
{/ MISS LATE } says:
under rants
{/ MISS LATE } says:
den u type ur name
{/ MISS LATE } says:
den u type something at the msg part

it all fell apart says:
okie
it all fell apart says:
i tag le
it all fell apart says:
wow..well done@

{/ MISS LATE } says:
:)

it all fell apart says:
wat are u doing now?

{/ MISS LATE } says:
bloggin (:
{/ MISS LATE } says:
posting something on ma blog

it all fell apart says:
have u seen my tag?

{/ MISS LATE } says:
yup

it all fell apart says:
lol...well...finally now i saw how u look

{/ MISS LATE } says:
im not mei nu :X

it all fell apart says:
u look cute..is wat isay

{/ MISS LATE } says:
(:

it all fell apart says:
i know u wanted a lollipop but i cant find a day when jj meets u

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! has been added to the conversation.

{/ MISS LATE } says:
nvm lah...
{/ MISS LATE } says:
sch reopen den ask daddy pass to me luh

it all fell apart says:
but it is ur favourite right?
it all fell apart says:
next time i treat u if i meet u

{/ MISS LATE } says:
(: ohkay!

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
.. eh i duno wad u all talkin abt

{/ MISS LATE } says:
lollie!

it all fell apart says:
lol....
it all fell apart says:
well....does both of u knows a guy call ka jun?

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
yah. i still havent tten mine la

{/ MISS LATE } says:
its wif mau

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
. i bet she ate it alredi

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
evil :X mine leh

it all fell apart says:
ka jun tomoro come my house to fight arm wrestling with me

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
huh

{/ MISS LATE } says:
kajunie fight wif uncle?

it all fell apart says:
that time he come to my house and saw me lor..he is the only dunman boy who saaw me

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
DD:

{/ MISS LATE } says:
DDD:

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
DDDD:

it all fell apart says:
yea....ka jun is a strong lad

{/ MISS LATE } says:
DDDDD:

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
5
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
siao

{/ MISS LATE } says:
he veh rough...

it all fell apart says:
i will test ka jun tomoro

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
lol

{/ MISS LATE } says:
harh...
{/ MISS LATE } says:
be careful...

it all fell apart says:
i think he cant be as rough as jj ba

{/ MISS LATE } says:
daddy veh rough ?

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
DDDDD:

it all fell apart says:
when ka jun me and jj we 3 play we like animal wildwild one

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
ur house sounds like a zoo
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
wild. tiger

{/ MISS LATE } says:
-.=
{/ MISS LATE } says:
puteh!
{/ MISS LATE } says:
hitam!

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
wth. hitum
euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
DDDDD:5 -.-

it all fell apart says:
sigh...i am sorry....ppl...i have to log out now..my sister is snatching it from me

{/ MISS LATE } says:
evilll poot
{/ MISS LATE } says:
ur sis

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
. girls like msn whad

it all fell apart says:
no la is her turn now so she have to play

{/ MISS LATE } says:
grrr

it all fell apart says:
i am the evill poot here

{/ MISS LATE } says:
no!

it all fell apart says:
i took her itme
it all fell apart says:
time i mean

{/ MISS LATE } says:
...

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
when is ur slot

it all fell apart says:
kk i go log out..later i come back
it all fell apart says:
maybe at 11

euniceeeeeeeeeee !!! says:
oh

it all fell apart says:
kk bye ppl!

2006-11-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

today's the last day we're reporting at the tanjong rhu campus :(
many many sweet memories in every single corner...
terminal one, the basketball court, 1F (&1E) classrm, da corridors, toilets (:
i wont forget all that happened in this very year
be it laughter or tears that i've shed... they'll always be in my heart
who knows
nxt year may another one thrilling year we're gonna have in e mt sinai...:)

qinghui cut her fringe! now soo kawaii ((: i realised that qinghui & sherlyn has da same ball! WILSON (: anyways me, gill & charmaine went kampong arang for lunch.. den we saw liying honey at the busstop :D me & honey hugged, den gill was like why u two so close arh something liddat. hahas why u jealous arh? we hugged when we met at tm lol

well well, today's choir was nicee(: but i went sharp D:
ohya my radio DIED. passed away ytd DD: i tried fixin but nehneh it was time for it to go... BUT it din really die a peaceful death; reason being i dismantled it... unscrewed the whole thing x) & took photos... hehs my dad helped me wif it(: my mum was sayin tt i siao :X

im goin on wed for class bbq!!!

2006-11-19T16:40:00.000+08:00

lalas~
friday was ccps thanksgiving day! prize-winners who went bk; me, wenying & steph (: other lovely ple who came; caslin, jaslynn, ee yeng & some other ple who i din notice (paiseh!)

ccps band!

percussion!

rgs, holy innocents & dhs LOL

wen, cas & me!

us & the lovely form tchr of 6hum'05; MRS GEH! :D

:) we left the sch for macs, den wen went with cas(& cas' classmates) to watch casino royale at cathay. i couldnt go cos i've got a damn appt at kk hospital. yikes.
as usual, the wait was veh loong x( there were soo many kids & teens like me there; its not a gd thing cos tis means soo many of these kids in singapore are like me :X anyways while waiting i was eating mr softee :) den there were this two girls sittin in front of me, i wanted to give them a slap, esp the younger one. they were soo damn freakin rude to their mum, and the worse thing is the mother didnt even get a least bit angry *pia pia*

when i went in, there were 4 doctors: the usual senior doctor & 3 other junior ones. one of the junior doctor did most of the talkin today & guess wad, he's from dunmanhigh! the other junior guy too! hahas he asked me wad badge was tt (i was wearin my uniform), he tot it was a CO badge -.- den the other junior guy was soo happy tt he got it right -.= the senior doctor asked him if he was in choir, he said: i dont think they will want me, i was in NPCC, i was only gd at shouting LOL
den i heard the junior guy tellin e junior girl about the metal buttons on our uniform =.=

i have to go for a scan nxt yr, and its a sch day, which means i gotta skip lessons before recess O.O is tt a gd thing?!

recently my family has been crazy over the 'da han min guo' cheer that caijing did in the show LOL we were like shouting "DA HAN MIN GUO" *clap clap clap clap clap* in the hawker, den my grandma & aunt laughed like siao xD ahh we're gonna organise a chalet & trip to bukit timah hill :O my cous priscilla's comin bk on the 16th :DD

i hart & miss everyone! muahmuah(:

2006-11-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

floorball was FUNNN! :D
me, angela, eunice, maureen, sherlyn, bevie & yunzhen was in floorball! hahas bevie was damn pro lah & yunzhen makes a good goalie (: eunice was a great attacker, maureen too! angela was like playin golf liddat lah LOL & sherlyn was a lil too gentle
we won the first round, then 2nd round tie... lost the 3rd & the last 3rd/4th placing match we lost. ahh i let 2 balls in you noe :'( BOOS anyways my legs are hurting from gettin hit by hockey sticks lol

i was e goalie durin one match & the ball was stuck in between my feet! D: i din dare to move den everybody came over & started tryin to get the ball out, but in the end, they kept hittin my legs .- hahas now my left leg got something like a bruise that sinks in O.O
den aft tt i dunno y i went to dial my daddy's no. & daddy actually picked up the fone O_O hahas daddy& uncle sound soo alike i couldnt differentiate :X he was actually in the amazing race! (SC camp) soo i quickly wished him luck den put down the fone LOL
thanks to my mum, i wasted hours at harborfront centre & vivocity waiting while my aunt tried clothes =.= haiis

tmr is ccps thanksgiving day!!! i going bk to take prize lol xD 6HUM de ple try ur best to make it kays! 8am meet at ESSO worhs i heard from cas(: wen&steph: if you're seeing this, WEAR YOUR TIES!

ahh szewing & zhenghui went hongkong! hope they rmb to get souvenirs LOL
nxt yr let's get HOTPINK jerseys! special :D i bet no one had them before (: must go persuade the guys :X but since they are soo GAY, im sure they wont mind yah? xD

2006-11-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

since young
genevieve has always done extreme stuff that surprises everyone

there was once when she pressed the stop button on the elevator
her dad threw her into the drain

once she went to press the fire alarm in a shopping mall
when she was (if im not wrong) P4
then the security guard came
and she ran out of the place

this year is a crazy year

first it was the crazy, embarassing & stupid things she did in the first half of the year.. im sure most of you all shld be aware of :X
then in the 2nd half it was at first alright
then she had to go do this terrible thing
that she doesnt actually regret for now, but maybe she will

i thought that i had nth to lose
but i was wrong
i was selfish; i didnt think of others
im prepared that you'll ignore me
but all i have to say is
i will go away like you want me to
but im sorry.

2006-11-14T09:38:00.000+08:00

hey ppl!

go vote for our seniors; xueling from 4I & zi ren frm dunno whr lol (:
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2006-11-12T12:23:00.000+08:00

whee'
the tour was FUNNN :D

at the crocodile farm(:

baybee crocodiles! (look a lil like lizards huh :X)

this baybee's born without a tail! aww poorthing :(

my sis & i(: hmm do we look alike?

funny looking icecream that isnt yummy. at all :X

my mummy & me! argh messy hair x)

dunno why my mum ask me go hug the pillar lol

mega eating competition ??!

LOL

FRUIT FEAST!

2006-11-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

mummy, mrs neo & me!

shar & me :DD

my new volleyball <3!

sushi! yumyum(:

MORE SUSHI xD

DA BAYBEE! :D

janey, me & gill :DD

zi xuan, qinghui, janey & zhiting (:

sherry's bear!!!

2006-11-10T14:38:00.000+08:00

BOO
im right now hanging arnd at hme; came bk early from choir cos i not feeling well :S cant sleep cos scared later at night like owl liddat lol
SO
i shall blog (: btw i got my codes from this skin! go check it out yah
I GOT PERMISSION FROM THE GIRL; JASMINE! THANKS JASMINE :D

hmm now TAG REPLIES :D

zhenghui : hehs you haven't teach me how to play minesweeper .- AND the words is alr on the picture, not i make one lol
eunice: everything's alright now! :D thankyou mummy!
sumei: lol thankyou
sherlyn: -. i underline cos its a name & i shuang wad .- see i also underline yours lol
maureen: deviantart maureen(: (dont start telling me that whole long story you have abt deviantart arh!) tyty i want my LOLLIE!!!
MRS NEO: LOL im sure mr neo will miss you when you go overseas! hurry go tell him xD

2006-11-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

zhenghui
you dunnit to say sorry cos its not your fault. i should be the one saying sorry; i shouldnt have dui ni fa pi qi...
sorry & thankyou...

2006-11-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

我的任性伤害了你（们）

my naive-ness hurt you
i said i was tired of the sun thing...
the thing is that, i always didnt want to accept the fact that maybe you like the sun, not daddy anymore
i liked the picture of a happy family; the 3 of us
i didnt want anyone, not the sun, to spoil it
i didnt consider the fact that liking daddy (for a veh looong time)
was tiring
i just kept saying 'dont pi tui, dont pi tui'
it was veh veh selfish of me :X

you (two) were always there for me
consoling me
cheering me up
encouraging me
but what did i do?

i wasnt able to make you smile
i didnt know how to console you
i wasnt motherly like mrs neo

all i did
was to get sensitive & emo, not considering others' feelings
all i was
was that lil girl who didnt want to leave her comfort zone, who depended alot on you

daddy was right
i must grow up, learn to be independent; & not always rely on others

对不起
我的自私
我的任性
我的不懂事

伤害了你.

sorry mummy
sorry xiao hui
sorry gaymate

sorry eunice

2006-11-08T18:32:00.000+08:00

i went tm today with my mummy
the baby went home ytd (:
we ate at genki sushi :DD yum yum
i saw fawn at M1
den i was damn pissed off cos we found out that i can only terminate my singtel plan nxt yr FEB >:( WTH i was damn blackface lah lol... we went into royal sporting den we went to look at balls :) hehe den my mummy see me so unhappy she bought me a new volleyball!!!!! YIPPEE :D hahas i've alr decided to join nxt yr's interclass lol. i tink ttg will shake head, cos i always dont take PE den i suddenly wanna play xP i shall post the photos that i took today later.. ohya we saw chen li ping & zhong qin at century square filming the show 'HDB tai tai' :)

:D lunch date tmr with SHARMAINE CHAN!!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY DEAR LOL :DD
hehs i'll be going on a guided tour this sat to if im not wrong, desaru :) we're gonna visit fruit farm, crocodile farm, bunny farm den at night go see fireflies!!! :D shall post the photos altogether :) (i shall post the pic that i took of my ball :)

<3 to you ple!

2006-11-07T17:25:00.000+08:00

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
her boyfriend was always there for her, day and night, always by her side; he never despise her, he never leave her.
one day when her boyfriend proposed to her, she rejected him and said that if she could only see the world, she would marry him.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying."Just take care of my eyes dear."

koped this from charlene's friend, yingxuan http://www.me-moriez-.blogspot.com/
ple who think that you like someone, go and think carefully now

will you still feel the same for that person if he/she is handicapped?

2006-11-07T16:14:00.001+08:00

argh
venting my anger on my comp wasnt a veh wise decision :X
playing tic tac toe isnt a gd idea too
aiya zhenghui liddat not fun lah
im not in the mood for games /:

eeyerr right now he's like playing minesweepers flag him self lah
sorry but i really damn sian
grrr minesweeper makes me feel even more like a

loser.

2006-11-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

ahh today's choir was on the whole, good :) hehs altho during sectionals i was smsing uncle junhao, i still sang! then during combined, for the veh first time i felt that i sang my hart out :D as in i really gave my veh best &my senior kathleen patted me on my shoulder and said " ahh my junior!" :DD gee hope i din get that wrong x) kathleen was the one who tot me many of the songs and i finally got them right, all thanks to her! :D anyways totally looking forward to tmr! chendol! :D ohyes ohyes we're using janey's ball tmr! byebye john! :'( altho i not veh shou wif you but i will still miss you! *sniff sniff* lols

msg to zhenghui shuai ge my GOOD FRIEND:
sorry :( hope it din hurt your feelings... i dont mean it the bad way you noe... :'( dont be sad
DD:

ohya and im looking forward to my lollipop uncle junhao! :DD he heard from daddy&kajun that i like lollipops :O anyways that is gd too, cos i get a lollipop! yippee :DD
i have a lollipop voice!

2006-11-02T03:28:00.000+08:00

hahas ytd eunice, tongwei& shikai came over and we had a fun time playing ball :D note to ple who wasnt invited: paiseh horh cos my mum dont allow me invite soo many ple, den at first tot zhenghui comin worh :X nxt time lah! that zhenghui arh, really damn toh kong leh... he say he only wake up at 2 in the aftnn; he woke up at 2:07pm O_O haii budden since he did set alarm but still din manage to wakeup, we shall forgive him :) lazy monkey

ahh last nite my winnie the pooh was MISSING!!! i tot of posting a lost&found poster (haha) den i took the torchlight &went shining arnd my room. when i went the 2nd round, i suddenly spot something; when i look under my bed, i see 2 short legs dangling O_O hahas it was so funny! aniwaes aft all the bear-hunting i went to sleep :)

note to Z.A.M.E.T.(S) :
pls go visit my other blog &tagtagTAG! arigato :)

haha okay now i shall post videos! :DD
ohno ohno! the codes arent working DD: arghh i copy&paste soo many times finally finished then now cannot work :X haiis i guess i'll jus provide the links

another time. :) im alr sianx out rite now aft all the copying&pasting... grrr
ohya i've decided that i will change blog url aft i reached a 100 posts :) but i will miss this blog; it has all my year one memories in dunman high... happiness, sorrow, laughter&tears :'( i carn bear to leave this tanjong rhu campus *sniff* the campus that i've familarised with in this year *sniff sniff* orr maybe i will one every year! hahas see how first ba.. i shall end with something i posted before

不要走，不要丢下我一个人...

2006-10-31T12:10:00.000+08:00

i hate being sick
the only gd thing abt being sick is that i can take naps &skip meals (:
had to give choir a miss cos on top of ulcers&sore throat, i suddenly had a terrible stomachache (tink its food poisoning :X) then in the aftnn when i felt a lil better, my mum pulled me to the bank. argh. den we went bugis. &guess who i saw? ZHENG LAO SHI :DD still soo pretty (as usual) hahas talked to her for awhile, den we headed to bugis street. i bot dunno how many pairs of earrings xD &i finally found the ones that i wanted for veh loong!

ohya the backgrd music currently playing is Who Knew by pink, in case you dunno! its a great song, first heard it on gill's ipod (she recommend de :) i will soon post a few music videos which i think are great yah so shi mu yi dai (:

RANDOM TAG REPLIES
i dont usually do tag replies but this one is special?!
elizabeth&sumei:
who is the one with sherlyn that day lah???!! i seriously tot i heard eliz's voice leh :S

2006-10-28T03:51:00.000+08:00

i've paid a price to stay in dunman high
but i wont regret hopefully?!
haiis i must jia alot of you nxt yr...

on thurs, i took bus hme alone. then while i was smsing uncle, a call came. on the other end was sherlyn&elizabeth (not sure whether got sumei, nvr hear her voice x) sherlyn called & say they saw me at the busstop&waved, but i din see them. they said i looked sad... ahh cos i was so touched i almost cried :) wanted to send a thankyou note, in the end i sent to the wrong person .- you ple the hp number all almost the same one lehx, haiyer! thanks to uncle, sherlyn & elizabeth, i found the courage to move on. i found the courage to face it. i found the courage to control my tears&fear. when i got home those words that you all said just kept ringing in my head...

VEH RANDOM conversation (part of it)
me: ohya i forgot. dont wear miniskirt horh!
tongwei: ya ok. i wear long long skirt that touches the ground!
(pretty much... my memory is currently under maintenance. sorry for the inconvenience caused)

busy choir schedule
ahh im gonna miss the tanjong rhu campus
*sniff sniff*
when i look bk, there are seriously lots of first-times i had in dhs. many different places, every single corner has a lovely memory... but its gonna be re-renovated /: hopefully they renovated the toilets of the mount sinai campus! i totally condemn the toilets :S nxt yr will be another roller coaster yah? full of ups&downs, laughter& tears... every ending is a beginning ;)

jiayou, be strong & have faith
YOU CAN DO IT! :DD

2006-10-21T03:20:00.000+08:00

genevieve is stupid.

or rather i feel stupid. the feeling just gets worse.. i ben lai alr calmed down&decided not to think abt it liao; i wont because of that yong yuan gen ta fan lian lah, budden ytd aft reading something, i dunno why, my hart shattered once again. maybe i worry too much, but i only wanted to care AS A FRIEND, but even that is difficult. why other ple can just so naturally show their care while all i can do is just wait&wait like a fool.

it just reminds me that if he got to know me earlier, by now we would have alr become friends or even GD FRIENDS. argh. forget it.
BUT, i shall not make any decisions before i can make sure of some stuff. yah charlene:)

ohya. HERE, I WANNA APOLOGISE TO MS TAN, FOR SORT OF LIKE PONNING ONE PERIOD OF SCIENCE... wanted to do so when i got bk, but shortly aftwards she left&i din dare :X so sorry ms tan... i didnt mean to:( the other tchrs sort of knew wad i was doing lah, so nobody scolded me... they nvr say anything; maybe they all tot i frm 1E de (mr.teo initially tot i was) budden zhenglaoshi noe leh... aniwaes, during that half an hour, the tchrs were all veh nice, in fact, they didnt seem like tchrs but rather, like our FRIENDS (esp mr.teo,ms.ling& zhenglaoshi :) inthe end it was our dear senior ruixian whom we met in the canteen that started saying that we all... um. i sian liao lah, tell them 525 600 million times liao lorh:(

me&shouyi are bro&sis. purely truely just bro&sis. not to mention that WE WILL NVR LAI DIAN (tis one is recently sy tell me de) we are veh close, tts y i would like wad richard said, cry like siao. hahas i just kept looking at the clock then suddenly it seemed as if the clock moved faster&faster... when i cry, i need ple to console, or rather just make me laugh. cos if you console me i may tend to cry even harder :X budden eventually will stop lah. that day, when i look at chunseng&yingying, it reminded of me&sy, jus that the guy a lil fatter & the girl a lil shorter. lol i envy ying, cos she has chunseng. me? sy was the one who always manages to make me stop crying or being angry/sad at something. when i cry, he will make me laugh then tell me "hao lah bu yao ku le lah!" ahh nostalgia_____________________________________________
i didnt go for mass choir cos i didnt like the feeling of going to a schoolday choir pract without sy. i regreted not getting to know him better earlier; we became more shou only when that day aft sch he came & look for me say go for pt together. from that day onwards i didnt go for pt with gillian&charmaine liao, it was always with sy, and i was early xP

nobody can replace him, even like temporary take his role (like anybody will zi yuan wan liddat) look at my guy friends:
zhenghui; you dont think i dunno lorh! i saw the msg you sent angela lah! he is a gd friend whom i crap alot with. he makes me smile when im upset, sometimes only.

daddy; we hardly converse in sch can? we just keep saying hi&yo to each other. then he just keep doing funny stuff and somehow i always veh qiao c it... whenever i see him smile, unless i totally feel so damn freaking terrible, i would also smile.

uncle; if we really get that close, my fone bill will probably have EXPLODEd. xD

weiyang; same as above

shikai; we hardly tok right now. veh seldom. we dont confide in each other just like last time. i used to think that as long as he is around, i wont mind taking bus with one whole grp of guys (which i did before) cos he would always make the effort to go&like tok to me, sometimes amuse me with lame stuff, in the middle of a conversation on BASKETBALL. nth but bball. i realised that their conversation topic had nvr ever changed.

the other guy; i hereby announce that we are strangers who dunno each other at all lah. hmph

seems like no one's up to it... girls? nah they have their own problems which are alr enough for them, &some are weaker compared to me /: this is a school holiday too long. but at least i stayed right till the end...

"& the next time you will see me will be next year"

2006-10-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

"This is not the genevieve i know"

-Zhenghui

hmm then what is? what am i to you ple? paiseh this post came late... i needed plenty of time to think through stuff; im still halfway through but alr sorta sorted out some. maybe goin to see her was a mistake, aft i saw her i starting crying. hahas kinda malu cos so many ple see me cry... she was crying, non-stop, i wanted to console her but i dunno how... in the end i just used my hands to dry her tears...

she told me,"gor 已经没事了，我也不会有事”

that triggered my tears. then she suddenly stood up&hugged me, even when her feet was badly injured. i cried. i was veh xin tong to see her liddat. den she told me that thing. which stabbed even harder into my hart. i was totally confused. i was angry, sad, hartbroken. but i just told her that i knew.&it doesnt matter.which is true.

then i went bk to class. my legs went jelly&i jus sat at the doorstep crying.then angela came. followed by eunice.like what i've said. im still a kid. i know its time to grow up, but i dunno how to... i wanna continue being that little girl who has the care of her wonderful family&friends. but i know that isnt possible. this whole month has totally got me weaker than ever. i dunno what to do. just like if i din stop running at the hostel i would faint; if these stuff wont go away, i would stop breathing.

i thinking that maybe i should jus tui chu. no gong ping jin zheng like wad gor&angela say. i should jus put an end to this love triangle that has jus begun. but i carn decide&i dont have confidence. in the 3 of us. i dunno if its the right thing to do. i dowan to hurt her; neither do i wan to hurt him. &recently he's gotten me really worried. i seriously dunno wad happened to him... &i dont understand why some things can just change so easily. i wan to solve this quickly, ifnot i would have to spend 2 whole mths brooding over it. i dowan that!

REMINDER: IF ANYBODY SEES THAT MY LIPS TURNED WHITE OR EVEN PURPLE, PLEASE HURRY UP&TELL ME. IF NOT I WOULD FAINT IN A SHORT WHILE /: ARIGATO

someone please

help me.

2006-10-13T03:18:00.000+08:00

GAH
i shall elaborate; on the benefit of gillian! xD

hahas not really lah. ok gillian: remember you asked me a question?? budden at that time i was sian tts y i din really answer you lyk, um properly /: so yupps, i answered your question! :) ahh im so nice! xD lala

ok
about the zhenghui thing
wanted to say thankyou lyk quite long ago; on monday (um i carn really rmb :X) but din have the chance so i say now(:
zhenghui: that funny&friendly guy whom i got to noe because of the cable thing (sumei!) and becuase of shouyi. although i say that you are crapp,sumtimes annoying, i call you lao ahpei&stuff, budden its not really true lah. like on monday, you were right lah, as in when i say you damn crapp&ba gua but you said sumting abt me smiling (if i am not wrong /:) you sorta influence me ba; like ytd the cute version of jumpingjacks you did; aft that i did it&hopefully you girls find it entertaining (yvonne?!) but according to sara it wasnt :X it seriously was really sweet of you to agree to accompany me, not forgetting; thanks angela for accompanying me for 2days! ok bk to the sentence; thankyou zhenghui. the guy who stay 4 busstops away from me; the cable guy; the friendly guy who waves to everybody; the cissy guy who has socks with rainbow trimmings left in his bag for supposedly onewk(hopefully he took it out alr xD)

THANKYOU!

ok
next i wanna thank my daddy&uncle
daddy: i dunno if you may see this cos ur com spoil.. but aniwaes, thanks for being that great daddy who sorta dotes on me. thanks for talkin to me at night even tho you probably alr veh tired... thanks for being that cute daddy who went "smiley face!" in the hall, other ple may say that the stuff you made are crapp, but i think they are cute. really cute. thanks for even being willin to become my daddy; although it was seriously random, the first day i smsed you first using tongwei's fone (tongwei: haha!) then aftwards we were carryin out one of our lame conversations, den i asked you to be my daddy. remembr horh, YOU ARE NOT OLD. &thanks for havin such a great gor who is currently my uncle :)

THANKYOU!!

uncle: although i dont really noe you well; i dont even noe how you look like :X budden from that time when you were sayin that you arent prepared to be an uncle to recently when i actually made a grave mistake&was quite anxious, you told me 'nevermind go sleep niece' it totally puts my mind at peace i dunno why... &the fact that you always put a smiley face behind almost every single msg to me, its just so sweet(: i seriously hope to get to know you better&for now GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR O LEVELS!

THANKYOU!!

now
someone who is veh important to me
someone who stayed by myside most of the times
someone who was listening&responding
someone who sorta understand how i felt
someone who encouraged&comforted me

eunice.
you were the one who was willing,listen to my crapp; the stuff abt him that din really concern you, the stuff abt the other him who sometimes, or most of the time made you sad... you encourage&comforted me, at that period of time when shouyi wasnt around, you were like this big sister who was trying to dry my tears. but as a friend, i dont really know how to comfort you /: like ytd i made you do jumpingjacks cos you were a lil depressed or something... but im not sure if it helped :X im still trying veh veh hard to cheer you and everyone else up!
words will not ever be able to express my feeling towards you but this is all i can say...

THANKYOU!!!

to all my other friends: dont be sad if i din thank you here! its either because i thanked you before or you havent really made so many impacts in my life, so start accumilating! xD hahas but i did mention quite alot of names here&there. some others are just wounds that needs time to heal. i am human. not to mention a sensitive&emotional one; i feel the pain even stronger, i feel the stab go deeper. look im NOT pinpointin anyone in particular but please, if you dont 100% get wad i mean, ASK. like gillian. tagg or just come&ask me. i know sometimes its hard to open your mouth, i would say im a rather daring girl who is able to such stuff&others even more extreme ones (since young!) but that doesnt remain an excuse for you, forever. everybody must GU QI YONG QI!!!

lol last but not least, ANYBODY WANTS TO INVITE ME TO YOUR HOUSE?? hinting to ple who actually stay like uber near me :DD i wanna go your house!

2006-10-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

SHOUYI DISCHARGE LE!!!

whoopeedoo! :DDD lalala i am hyper today! hahas gillian: i also dunno why /: budden liddat den cute mah x) from wad i heard, i tink he is tired le ba...

我愿意当你的避风港，替你遮挡狂风暴雨

我愿意当你的拉拉队，永远在你身边为你加油打气

you will never hear these words from me&you will never noe... at least i tink so...

BIG THANKS TO ZHENGHUI!

&GD LUCK TO EVERYBODY FOR INTERCLASS TMR!!!

GANBATTE!

JIAYOU x3

2006-10-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

even though i spent quite alot of moneh today, on taxi&balloon, its still alrite. i c him bcum so skinny, really really veh xin tong lorh... the 3 of dem came together, & left together. why must liddat... esp one of dem. we seem to be walkin on different roads which are parallel to each other; we will never ever meet. i did try to walk into your hart, but sumhow there's always this distance between us that i myself can nvr overcome... i dowan. i dowan you all to leave. i dowan sy go bk china... or at least before tt leave some time for us marh... i dowan liddat bu gao er bie. den wait until nxt yr...

bu yao zou
bu yao diu xia wo yi ge ren...

2006-10-05T18:36:00.000+08:00

my plan to nap today

failed.

all thanks to the baby:( my mum actually allowed me to nap for awhile today, but the baby was so damn noisy that i carn sleep. she was lyin beside me, down there ee-in ahh-in gah-in. arghh. den she jus keeps on pullin out her pacifyer & start to whine. arghh.

i flunked science& i tink i flunked maths too /: but who cares. tmr is the day :D hope ple rmb to bring money for taxi, ifnot we wud have to take the long way; take bus den mrt, which will take approx. 45min. how do i noe; i did that the last time :X my mummy(real one) & my daddy(fake one) were veh sia today. asin 'blind'. daddy din noe that i was sittin rite behind him, even though he turned bkwards a couple of times -.- my mum din noe i was walkin behind her -.= i went macs today, alone, to study.. in a sea of blue collars, i saw a white collar, & that person was actually sandywang! then before i left, i saw my wei-da-senior-hu-tot-me-how-to-play-timpani; yvonne! lalala veh long nvr see her liao...

really lookin forward to tmr; tantockseng den bugis! :DD

2006-10-02T11:34:00.000+08:00

3 down, 4 more to go...

i tink the papers are so far ok larh... as in manageable :) budden the killer ones are cumin... tmr geog; my veh lan subject, den wed science; my lan4 dao4 bu4 neng2 zai4 lan4 subject, thurs maths; careless mistakes :X & friday hcl; okok larh... me, GILLIAN, eunice, angela&denise (so far) gonna visit shouyi on friday... called him jus now, he wan to wait until friday den discharge cos he wan gill to visit him -.- he veh concerned abt her sia... kept askin me how she is... he oso veh concerned abt jiaxun... he say tt he's better now... shld be discharged by tis wk... budden mus wait for sum report worx...

hahas i am goin crazy, influenced by e CRAZY&ZI LIAN zhenghui xD i everyday bring the green hairband&bearbear to sko :) hahas i wan shouyi to faster cum bk...
i wan him to feed me peanuts
i wan him to buy me icecream
i wan him to pinch my cheeks
i wan him to walk me home
i wan him to say tt he loves me

i wan him to gimme a hug...

taken frm sumone's blog
after knowing about Shou Yi's condition...i was worried...and i teared? (ok...i am not weak...) but to my surprise...**** teared too (although he denied it)...he was really worried about Shou Yi...****'s actually a very nice and thoughtful guy despite him making fun of me everyday...honestly, i think that guys who cry are guys with feeling...haha...other guys just there act seh and refuses to cry when they are sad...humans are humans after all... :D

sry for not gettin permission /: i was shocked when i read tis. sum ple jus dont show tt weaker side of dem yarh? there's no need to hide. be true to urself marh...

okay. tt was quite random. gd luck for the rest of eoys! jiayou x3 :DD

2006-09-28T14:12:00.000+08:00

after reading ying. eunice. liying. elliot's blog. i broke dwn.i couldnt help it.im supposedly studyin malay; have to chiong cos i lost my malay notebk.. budden after cin all these posts..

i've decided

shouyi
your duedate is nxt friday
if by monday you still dont cum bk
i shall go to tantockseng and haunt you!
LOL
seriously
even if you want me to go everyday
i dont mind
not at all...

that day i was lookin bk. rmb that time when we attended syc concert. when i jus stepped into esplanade. i took my fone and saw 16 missed calls. jus at tt moment e fone rang. on e other end u were ranting at me, askin me where i was. sayin tt e concert is starting... u asked me to run, but i told u i was wearing heels. haha. den when i finally saw u, u were really really anxious. everyone else went in, except for u and charmaine. durin intermission, i asked if u were veh sad tt gill couldnt make it. u said u wud be more disappointed if i din cum. boy i was touched...

please
come back
i wont mind u breakin my hairband a million times
wearing my handbag around ur neck
constantly sayin tt im fat, short
i wont mind

i wanna c u guys play bball
i miss the bball court
even though
i walk past it everyday in e morning
without u
it seems veh empty
everything feels empty
the canteen
classroom
the corridors

please come back.

2006-09-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

1. who are your best friends now in your current school?
eunice gaymate! my family and theBAKERY!

2. who are you angry with now?
jin shou yi. cos he stay hospital so long! hmph!

3. who do you hate now?
nobody!

4. who do you trust in your current school?
gaymate! gor&daddy! UTOPIA!!! xD

5. who is/are your listener(s)?
gaymate! hahas

6. who is the one who has been your longest, good friend in your current school?
gillian! my fave tongzhuo! :DD

7. who are the ones that make you worry often?
gor&di lorh. always dunno how to look after themselves. haiis

8. who are the ones that makes you laugh always?
GILLIAN! GOR&DI! MATTHEW! TONGWEI!!!

9. do you miss HIM / HER?
yesyesyes. i miss BOTH him&her! xD

10. who do you always talk on phone with?
used to be di... but now nomore le :(( but i always sms my daddy nowadays! :DD

tag three people:)
zhenghui, tongwei and zongyi! :DD

2006-09-20T03:18:00.000+08:00

i guess im being paranoid /: maybe is just that i needed time to adjust to tis change ba... i finally realise how my life involves him and now he suddenly not around, i feel kong xu; empty. lyk sumting is missing liddat :S and recently depressing stuff are piling up, on after another, maybe its too much fer me to take...

everyone will be sad, but not everyone will be emotional

i shall stop worryin, not totally but at least abit... i will try my best larh :)

he's really really important to me... because of him, i din feel lonely, even when my friends dun really click wif us, i still learnt how to click wif his friends although its like our seniors always say we all 2 dunno wad, other ple oso say, budden we know we treat each other like bro&sis liddat. 他的肩膀不是给我靠得，我要靠的人也不是他... although i a lil' bu shuang wif tis sentence (is he say to me de) but liddat jiu gou le... 真的就够了

黑夜将城市笼罩

想念蔓延在细胞

想你的拥抱

你的微笑

想到快要疯掉

爱你到莫名其妙

上了瘾无可救药

没有你会死掉

我不再开心的笑

痛苦在胸口燃烧

在你离开以后

寂寞把我逼进了墙角

不听别人的劝告

才掉进你的圈套

现在知道

却放不掉

世界慢慢的变老

戒不掉

对你的依靠

失去重心该怎么好

每个表情都能治疗

相思的煎熬

戒不掉

你对我的好

像被关在想念的牢

只剩寂寞缠绕着我

我无路可逃

就是戒不掉对

你的依靠

就是戒不掉

你对我的好

if you carn c the above, go to view -> encoding -> select unicode :) im addicted. maybe not to him but sumting about him i dunno how to say /: and i agree that i cried partially because im emotional but i din cry only because he was ill... there is other reasons to it

god, please don't play games with me.

2006-09-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

im scared

scared that i'll lose him
my dear lord please watch over him
let him recover real soon
fully recover
i dunno wad will become of me
if he ever leaves me
in any way

amen.

2006-09-18T03:46:00.000+08:00

i ask myself this question nowadays:

am i being selfish?

if i am selfish, i wont want shikai to get into bball
if i am selfish, i wont want shouyi& shikai to forgive ying
if i am selfish, i wont want them to become SCs
if i am selfish, i wont let shouyi take 158 wif jiaxun all the way
if i am selfish, i wont let mum not come out to eat dinner wif us
if i am selfish, i wont let my sis play wif the volleyball

if i am selfish, dere are many more stuff that i'll do, maybe even more horrible ones. but i did all the above. so i guess im not selfish yarh?! is just that recently i've been trying to change my mindset, fer eoys and other reasons, so i've done abit of recollection

sometimes things just don't go your way in life and it just depends on how you react to it; are you gonna let it go or are you gonna brood over it? as i've mentioned before, we should treat all these as a lesson in life and just move on; don't be stuck at a spot just because of it, 'cause after all, the person who ends up being the most miserable, is you.

2006-09-15T04:25:00.000+08:00

ahh new blogskin! must tag kay; new tagboard; it's empty :((( dere was sum prob at first /: but me finally figured out! i am proud to announced tt fer 2 consecutive days (wed&thurs) i was occupied wif history :S ohyarh, i forgot to mention tt me and angela are really kind ple :DD boys are weird nowadays, keep sayin dey got HIV.
eeeeew.yuck.PHEW!

btw, e PE relief tchr almost caused me to get a hart attack :X hahas not really her fault larh; i dun tink she noes... look, its not ur fault tt i carn really do PE and its not my fault tt i click wif guys more den girls... ohwell, doesnt really matter anyway, i'll jus pretend nth happened. and i jus realised tt eoys are really near... ohgosh sumbody run me dwn wif a car :S im not prepared fer science and geog! both suck lyk hell :((( these few days had been an 'aboo' day! jiayous to ple who are studyin!

2006-09-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

went home with tong, gor, di and jiaxun today.

a guy, a big boy and a small boy boy were sleepin on e bus.

probably slept all e way to e last stop x)

and they slept veh cutely

all 3 of dem

made me feel like sleepin too xD

eunice is rite. im a lil too sensitive. if i dun tink so much, i wud feel better. so im gonna pretend as if i dunno anything and plaster a smile on my face. startin from tmr. cos rite now, i noe way too much /:

2006-09-06T03:28:00.000+08:00

monday
went bk to sko to do raingauge. e peachtea bottle is so damn hard to cutlarh! den after that we had to put some sand into it. it was uber malu larh! me and charlene were lyk squattin dwn dere diggin x( not to mention that e guys hardly helped /: after that me, di and charlene went to play bball :) di tot us how to shoot lan ban; aim for the corners of the square on e board. that was easy, i shot in quite a number of dem :)) den i tried from the centre, sum got in :DD whee! after that my gor came lkin fer me, den me, di, gor and jiaxun went macs. not to mention that we left charlene all alone in sko to wait fer her dad and all the oder eilliot ple were goin too. e 3 of us were walkin veh slowly, compared to mr.pawjiaxun hu was lyk way ahead. we tot he was really hungry xD den he suddenly dropped di's ball, gor went to pick it. frm afar we saw him kept on cleaning his head, den di say he zhuang dao tou and he's bleedin :S im not gonna say wad happened to him, but i hope he rmbed to wash it wif dettol! xDD it was uber uber farny larh! after that, he continued walkin really fast, i really tot he was veh hungry!
when we finally reached macs, i tink i know y he walked so fast liao; macs was totally flooded, wif dhs ple! den sumhow mr.pjx managed to cut queue n got his food really fast. so i guess he IS hungry.ok i shant start arguin wif myself. den i asked shikai to help me get an icecream cone budden sumhow when e 3 of us sat dwn to eat, shouyi toppled e icecream n i've onli taken a few bites of it:( i actually dun wan alr but gor got me n himself one:) dere was sumting really wrong wif gor that day; he scolded everybody retarded fer no reason (he dun usually say 'retarded', sum barbecue sauce got onto his shirt, he toppled my icecream n accidentally nong onto my paper, so i had to tear e last pg away :X
after that dey had to go bk to sko to continue their astar lessons (alltheway until 3) me n di was veh wasteful /: we din finish the fries, drinks and i din finish my icecream :(( we started complainin abt y we came to macs when we actually wanted to go hawker centre x( after that we walked bk to sko, me to take bus hme n di to go bk to his astar project. i was really lonely on e bus :( THANKS GOR FER E GREEN HAIRBAND :DD

tuesday
me n my mummy n my mei went dwnstairs (voiddeck) to play badminton (my mei rollerblade. ahh we are so sporty xP my hand was achin frm ytd bball budden i was supposed to excercis emore durin tis hols:) i sang really loudly (as usual :P) ahh i miss bball, vball and captain's ball! i shall play bball wif my coussies! after that we went to suntec. we walked past SK jewellery in citylink, hmm reminds me of chunseng :D when we reached suntec, we were havin a headache abt wad to eat fer lunch, by den alr 2 plus 3 liao. we considered Swensens but settled for tis resataurant called 'Country Manna'. e atmosphere in tis can ting was uberb! dere was tis piano that plays on its own near e entrance den e whole place was veh vintage. e lights were dim and it wasnt noisy cos lunchtime over le. we ordered spaghetti bolognese, vegetarian spaghetti and manna baked rice. e baked rice was e best! dere was lyk melt cheese on e top and dere was pieces of chicken on e rice. YUMYUM! we each had a bowl of soupy; mushroom soup wif tt bread thing on top:))
waseh after we finished, i was SO DAMN FREAKIN FULL!!! burb. i cud hardly walk. den i bought another pair of FBT shorts and socks (black, blue, pink and green :) four pairs! after that, we headed to my grann's hse fer steamboat (dinner) :DD
THE END~

i made a pact wif my gor; he'll cum to sko and accompany me (on wed) and i'll bring all my maths notes fer him to study while i do astar. sounds good rite? :) i tinki'll ask him to go hawker centre fer lunch:) yesyes.

2006-09-04T03:49:00.000+08:00

jus read liying's blog. veh you mo shui ^.^ budden sum are quite depressin... poorliying. she's relly a veh nice person. evil ple, dun bully her larh

okay. im gonna give thanks. for everything that i have rite now. for all my family and frens who are by my side. look guys, i treasure my frenship wif u all, tts y i try my best to keep it... for some other stuff, let's jus keep it tis way.

ying, im gonna forgive you. seriously. although i carn forget those stuff that was supposedly done by you, im not gonna let it be the reason for us to bcum enemies or wadsoever. lyk wad shouyi said, duo yi ge peng you hao guo duo yi ge di ren. he shld practise wad he say... as long as you gonna change, find back ur ownself, im gonna give u all my support, u are not alone :) why im doin tis is becos we shld lyk, learn frm setbacks yarh? and not bow dwn before it. so take tis as a mistake in life and jus carry on. dun be stuck for too long. sumtimes if u were to break dwn, jus do it. u'll feel better. shikai and shouyi may be a lil more hard to xplain to dem, but dun worry, we shall do tis together. i've decided its jus best for YOU to tell dem. i be standin beside you :) and abt e other thing horh, u lyk haven cum to a conclusion yet lehx. nvm larh, i oso not veh eager to noe ur answer. i'll ask u again when sko reopens kayy. honestly, i suggest u all tell me stuff straightaway, esp if its not veh nice stuff. ifnot when i find out myself, it wud seem to me that u are tryin to hide it frm me liddat..

shar suggests that i shld go tell him HIF :X budden its lyk we not exactly on talkin terms, neither issit wavin, so we can be considered strangers. well i am a stranger to him, but he is not to me :/ haiis sumbody shld cum counsel me, sharmaine chan where are you?! i wanna quit watchin dem play bball; i feel veh tired. i dunno wad am i doin all these fer, end of the day i still ask myself tis question, is he worth it?

2006-08-20T03:24:00.000+08:00

sorry horh diane and sk... i bu shi gu yi de :(( i just changed okay den the doorbell rang and dere was my dad :O okay i dunno wad emoticon is tt; did i jus invent tt?! nvm, heyy im really sorry okay, esp sk, u sounded angry on e fone :(

okay, the ting is, my dad jus came bk without notice and spoilt all my plans for the day. i ended up havin tuition and staying hme for the whole day. not to mention i went for macs in e morning. but tt was when i was in HIGH spirits. after tt was totally phew! anyway, i finally finished watchin ai qing mo fa shi le. and i watched abit of wang zi bian qing wa. so damn freakin unfair larh...

anyway on friday, sumtin really interestin happened. actually not say vry interestin larh. nvm. me, shouyi, gill and charmaine didnt eat lunch bfore choir cos we were all in class. gill was doin her history essay and i was drawin the design for the choir board. den those 2 wasnt doin anyting. shouyi say he dun wanna eat; he jian fei o.O (i lost 5 kg and tt inspired many ppl to jian fei :) charmaine CANNOT go n eat, cos the choir board thing has got her name on it. I DREW THE WHOLE THING AND IN THE END WE 4 ALL GET CREDIT. but i still got my way; i wrote "gillian, charmaine, shouyi, GENEVIEVE" at the back :DD here cums the interestin part, gill and charmaine left for choir first cos shouyi was dily-dalyin in his class. den when we walked down e corridor, he met tis 1B and started tokin (he seem to noe everybody; girls) so i went up first, tinkin tt he wud catch up. hu noes after i reach sec3 study area, charmaine and gilll wasnt dere, shouyi nvr came x( in e end, i found out tt dey went to the CANTEEN to buy food, and all got late forms (ahaha!) aiyo dey still say wanna jian fei?!

after so many wks of cin ppl play bball and vball durin pt, i finally did sumting else, that is, watch my dear gaymate eunice play her dizi. it was quite gd :)) she uber pro, one dizi all her senior heard le all cum and c. den one of her senior was holdin on to MY hairband (she din noe it was mine, i put on the table) luckily she din break it or anyting xD

den on e bus (tong! u go hme so early den i one person vry poorthing u noe!) shouyi borrowed my fone to play (as usual) den his friend hu was SITTIN on his leg borrowed and c (he tot it was shouyi's) den pass pass pass until the back row of boys hu neither shouyi nor me noe. DEY TOOK PICTURES OF THEMSELVES. ONE OF THE PIC SET TO WALLPAPER. I GOT A SHOCK WHEN I OPENED E FONE :x i was like 'eee' shouyi's fren told e back row den i tink dey abit bu shuang. and i was deletin all e fotos. HELLO TIS IS MY FONE. den when shouyi's fren alited, he said bye bye to me. haiis shld say byebye de dun say, not vry important de jiu say (i dun mean u not very inportant horh. still glad u said byebye after condemnin my fone xD) after tt shouyi and jiaxun was lookin at my fotos (by tt time i alr vry pissed le) den i tink jiaxun saw e foto me and gill took at e cc and he went 'eee. y lyk tt de'
EVIL

now is 3.30am. i seem to hav gotten e habit of wakin up at 3 plus to blog...

2006-08-14T03:00:00.000+08:00

Its 3 AM in e morning. By rite, im supposed to wake up at 6 for sko, but e stupid rashes on my right thigh and my rite hand is itchin lyk siao.argh. i hate it... scratch and scratch and scratch. later bleed so mite as well wake up and blog. recently got alot of stuff to write de, but everytime write halfway, my mum jiu cum bk le...

daddy is goin pakistan today. i bu fang xin, cos of all e terrorists and everything :x but he say its a gd opportunity, so he's goin. haii god bless him. anyway horh, he go overseas equals to i can go out! xD budden nxt wk got tests, which means i wan to go out oso mayb no one wan to go out?! anyone hu wans to go out tell me after readin tis :) naughty me rite x)

i feel DESPO. i regreted doin tt on national day. i felt uber distaughted i dunno y. shld i give him up? but its only 2 wks... if i give up den shld b easier ba?! i c today how first.. haiis i startin to get worried. i tell you not to tell oder ppl, but u went to tell. i trusted you alot leh. but you sort of betrayed my trust. mayb you din do it on purpose ba...

shouyi vry CUTE leh. call and ask me how to spell kaleidescope xD my sis tot he was my tuition tchr -_- i had a hard time tellin him e 's' part. he couldnt get it. but i alr made a loud sss sound and he still couldnt get it. ahaha

tts all folks. gonna try and go bk to sleep. but i doubt i'll get any x)

2006-07-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

i totally suprised lotsa ple :DD when i told dem, out of 5, 3 stunned for quite awhile. esp sher and ying. ahaha. i am sho brilliant :) i was SUPER hyper today durin recess. and science. u can ask clar. i super scared for e practical. i studied lyk siao larh. in e end, it was super easy sia. no need study too hard de :) foyer concert's on friday x) pl must cum and support me!!! make BIGBIG banner for me! LOL :)

2006-07-27T18:31:00.000+08:00

how insensitive can boys get? he tinks tt im givin him e cold shoulder for no particular reason?! heck care him larh. anywaes, today's pe was superb! we played abit of volleyball, but after tt switched to captain's ball. uber fun larh! it seems lyk my skills havent got rusty (: i ji bai nian nvr play le! x) gill foul larh! go and CLING onto me, den later go and pull sher's hand. ahaha. the boys damn pro sia. throw uber far on lorh.

the maths ting was easier dan i've expected. i do until almost gonna fall asleep le. ahaha. according to jiaxun: gill and shar is cute. LOL. u will noe y i say tt if u noe the other meaning :DD waseh ignore sumone u used to tok to quite often abit hard leh. but hu cares. im jus 'yi ya huan ya' onli. wtf larh

2006-07-26T18:27:00.000+08:00

went hme with my gor (again) and zhenghui today. uber tired after the fps test. I'M NOT GONNA TAKE FPS NEXT YEAR! so damn stressed larh. when i reached the last few solutions, i alr dere tinkin 'out of the box' le. cos our problem was on nutrition (not enuff food), i started askin if we cud eat almost anyting and everything. LOL. ahaha. rite now i vry tired x( tmr still got the maths competition after sko. *yawns* haii. y do i alwaes make myself sho busy?!

i got to noe more ppl! lyk jiaxun (ahaha gill!), zhenghui. WOOHOO! ahaha. me, frm a person hu dont noe almost everybody, to a person hu noes at least sum ppl :) lol. dere's a screw loose in my brain, so im crappin.

to my dear twin louis: can you for goodness sake pls stop taking out my hairband, pullin out my rubberband, and jiaxun dont join the fun. IT IS NOT FUNNY. IT IS IRRITATING. esp when you hav to go thru sumting so many times, and then after that u dun even understand y u make ur life so difficult. and im referrin to sumting else. argh
sho nice ppl, pls stop bein annoyin and irritatin. be NICE!

2006-07-24T19:36:00.000+08:00

dun i deserve a lil bit of appreciation?
i dun dare to say i stayed wit u thru thick and thin, but at least i didnt walk out on u! how cud u do tis to me? i endured ur crap and insensitivity, but i alr told u dere is a LIMIT to my endurance. u shldnt take things forgranted. is ***** that hard to say?
im starting to tink tt transfering mayb a gd idea. den sum ppl will learn to appreciate and treasure me more. or mayb not.

2006-07-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

today at 1st vry bad day for me de.. i wanted to sing e song 'bad day' during choir x) but everything turned out fine in e end :) bollywood auditions postponed to thurss. whippee!!! i realised tt although i not sho close to sum of my frens, i becum closer to my other frens! take care jie and di!!

frens are more imp dan steads :)

thursday; supposedly doing chinese project

2006-07-13T13:22:00.000+08:00

tongwei is sho nice:) she borrowed laptop frm e library under her name, den she let me use. not lyk my dear didi, leave me in school den ownself go kampong arang eat. how can lyk tt one. wad kind of di is he. i sho nice, came at 9am cos he say he cumin at tt time to do hw, in e end he was 25min late. wtf larh. now sher and eunice at co briefing. wtf larh.
tis maureen arh. i tell tongwei doin geog wif tzyy shuan and JUNYAN, den she heard 'gillian'. she claims it sounded lyk gillian. den now she realise tt is junyan.. den she say my pronunciation got prob. wtf larh.
i saw ben on e bus tis morning :DD den my dear twin louis woke up late for sch; he took e same bus as me. hahaa.
and me and sher decided to use the song 'buttons' for e bollywood thing. it was MAUREEN'S 'fantabulous idea. >.<

to conclude, i wud lyk to say tt TONGWEI IS A VERY VERY NICE GIRL.

2006-07-10T18:30:00.000+08:00

IDMI is damn hard larh. compose song not easy at all... i seriously rather hav lessons... haiz. i tink we might fail :( i tink yingteng vry poorthing, stuck with us, bunch of slackers...

we went to watch just my luck... quite nice larh. alot better dan superman (no eliz i wont regret sayin that) than b4 tt we took neoprints... e machine vry scary. vry fast. :)) as usual di crapped alot. den every1 started gettin fed up at him. haha :DD

2006-07-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

1. Smoked

2. Consumed alcohol

3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex

4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex

5. Made out with someone of the opposite sex-

6. Made out with someone of the same sex-

7. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex-

8. Bought porn

9. Watched porn

10. Done drugs

SC0RE = 2

11. Taken pain killers

12. Taken someone else’s prescription medicine

13. Lied to your parents-

14. Lied to a friend

15. Snuck out of the house

16. Done something illegal- probably

17. Cut yourself-

18. Hurt someone-

19. Wished someone to die-

20. Seen someone die-

SC0RE: 5

21. Missed curfew-

22. Stayed out all night

23. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself-

24. Been to a therapist-

25. Been to rehab

26. Dyed your hair-

27. Received a ticket

28. Been in a wreck- in a golf cart xD

29. Been to a club

30. Been to a bar

SC0RE= 1

31. Been to a wild party

32. Seen the Mardi Gras

34. Had a spring break in Florida

35. Sniffed anything-

36. Wore black nail polish-

37. Wore arm bands-

38. Wore t-shirts with band names-

39. Listened to rap

40. Own a 50 cent cd

SC0RE= 2

41. Dressed gothic

42. Dressed prep

43. Dressed punk

44. Dressed grunge

45. Stolen something-

46. Been too drunk to remember anything

47. Blacked out

48. Fainted-

49. Had a crush on your neighbor- they live close enough.

50. Had someone sneak into your room

SC0RE= 0

51. Snuck into some else's room

52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex-

53. Been to a concert

54. Dry humped someone

55. Been called a slut

56. Called someone a slut

57. Installed speakers in your car

58. Broke a mirror-

59. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house

60. Brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush

SC0RE= 1

61. Consider ludacris your favorite rapper

62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters-

63. Cruised the mall

64. Skipped school

65. Had an eating disorder

66. Had an injury

67. Gone to court

68. Walked out of a resteraunt without paying

69. Caught something on fire

70. Lied about your age-

SC0RE=2

71. Owned an apartment

72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend

73. Cheated with someone

74. Got in trouble with the police

75. Talked to a stranger-

76. Hugged a stranger

77. Kissed a stranger

78. Rode in the car with a stranger

79. Been sexually harrassed

80. Been verbally harassed-

SC0RE= 3

81. Met face to face with someone you met online

82. Stayed online for 12 hours straight- i am now

83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight

84. Watched tv for 12 hours straight

85. Been to a fair-

86. Been called a bad influence

87. Cursed-

88. Prank called someone-

89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex-

SC0RE= 1

91. Cheated on homework

92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex-

93. Been pushed into a pool-

94. Played pool-

95. Watched 5 hours of mtv straight

96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you

97. Had a crush on someone younger than you

98. Wear eyeliner

99. Skinny dipped

100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

SC0RE= 2

TOTAL OF ALL= 19
10-20= Goodie goodie

21-30= A little rebelious

31-40= Getting hot baby

41-50= Rebel

51-60= Bad girl/boy

61-70= Bitch

71-80= Can’t believe you made it this far, ass hole

81-90= Damn91-100= Fucking bad ass

im such a good girl (:

2006-06-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

do i hav to spend the first half of my life living up to my dad's expectations?? wad if i cant? can sumone tink of a way to commit suicide not painfully? he say i take things vry hard. he oso lorh... if he knew these few days wad was goin on in my life... i gurantee he wont say tt lorh... i feel lost; abandoned. u may say im jealous i heck care, but the seesat thing is bugging me.and the boy crazy thing. i noe it all started wif me. i can blame no one but myself... haiz. im really so wrong abt the thinking i had before skool reopen. i tot it was gonna be really fun and great. but i was so damn wrong.

but its still really great to noe tt ppl still do care for me, although dey may forget abt me sumtimes, but its jus gd to noe tt im still important and not invisible.i love my gor, my jies, my jie mei, all my great frens... but im not sure if dey feel e same way.

2006-06-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

sorry eunice gaymate
sorry shikai didi

u dun wanna say wad happened den nvm larh. but let bygones be bygones larh... its no use being really fed up and upset. i vry disappointed in myself. i wasnt able to accomplish anything i wan to...

2006-06-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

i succeed le... i may not have totally forgotten abt tt feeling, lyk wad eunice say, maybe when i c him, tt feeling will cum bk im not sure abt tt, but its just tt now e feeling isnt tt strong anymore. liking sumone hu doesnt lyk u is tiring... we shld give ourselves a break yarh? jus lyk urself. i dun tink i will be ready lyk another person until after a period of time... i kinda dun understand how do angela and sherlyn treat e way dey lyk sumone.wad dey do is abit too much liao... its starting to get out of hand and unclear of their feelings... i dun understand....

tt day mami told me sumting, tt make me feel happy, sad and tired. happy cos at least i noe he didnt change, sad cos i tink he vry poorthing and tired cos i hear he tt five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred times liao... den i replyed him sumting tt made him misunderstood tt i was angry -.- well... let me tell u, its either u give up OR u try all means to get wad u wan... im really tired cing u moody, tt black face when u are stuck in e middle of nowhere and dere's nth i can do cos i finally bring myself to understand how she feels... u make up ur mind

i shall not post so often le... cos i cant.wif my mum around most of e time... and i wan to concentrate on my studies now... cut down on smses... 303msg tis mth... haiz... i wan e free 1000 msg!!!! my stupid fone always no batt one... dun buy motorola hp hor ppl...

a big thx to eunice, gillian, shar and mami (although he alwaes crap) for ur help....
angela and sherlyn too..good luck

2006-06-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

Seasons Of Love

525,600 minutes
525,000 moments so dear. 5
25,600 minutes
how do you measure,
measure a year? I
n daylights, in sunsets,
in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles,
in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes
how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love?
Measure in love.
Seasons of love.
525,600 minutes!
525,000 journeys to plan.
525,600 minutes how can you measure the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she learned,
or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
or the way that she died.
It’s time now to sing out,
tho the story never ends
let’s celebrate,
remember a year in the life of friends.
Remember the love! Measure in love. Seasons of love!

2006-06-04T15:39:00.001+08:00

[x] You know someone that cares aboutyou
[ ] You have a bf/ gf/ fiancee/ husband/ wife.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You get good grades.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
[x] You live in a house.

T O T A L: 7

[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a wk.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.

T O T A L: 8

[ ] You have over 100 friends on friendster.
[x] You have pictures on friendster.
[x] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[x] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look forward to go to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
[x] You shower daily.

T O T A L: 6

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You're healthy.
[ ] You've never had a cavity.
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have so many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.

T O T A L: 5

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[x] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[ ] You have a screen name.
[X] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don't have many enemies.
[ ] You are happy you're living.

T O T A L: 7

add up all the scores and times 2.
my life is 66% perfect.

2006-05-24T18:24:00.000+08:00

today is my birthday!!! happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me!!!

given by: (frm left) shikai, eunice charlene tongwei, shouyi

the lily diane gave me :DD

our toilet photo

paiseh... i dun have enuff time to list out hu gimme wad... but thanks everyone for ur presents!!! lurve you all <3

2006-05-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

the threesome stalks ppl (read on their blog)... including him... wasiao.... dey got abit of mental problem issit? watched e interclass thing today... kinda boring... but he was standing rite dere... a stone's throw... haha... he looked over sumtimes... mami very qian bian...
1f is getting worse... unity, cooperation, esp ENTHUSIASM.... at tis rate, the class will malu very soon. haiz...
told mummy bout my maths le... feel relieved... but she is upset... i hope she doesnt tell daddy... ifnot arh, i will alot of stuff get confiscated, and tt will be the beginning of my 3/4 dead life. god bless me. i dun want to get scolded on my birthday...
speaking of which, tomolo is the day!!! yay!! so lookin 4ward to it(((: presents, presents and more presents :D
e first person to wish me happy birthday will be damn lucky sia :DD

2006-05-17T18:36:00.000+08:00

happy birthday sher!!!

2006-05-17T18:26:00.000+08:00

cos mami very annoying, so i decided to post... currently tokin to sher and kalpanini (old friend) :DD mami yue lai yue duo rival le... haiz... once i tink bout tis i feel very sad... tis friday maybe have choir... yay!!! finally!!! my maths very lan. science oso very lan. haiz... got scolded by daddy... he is disappointed in me... i actually was realli happy... when mummy didnt scold me when i told her my results... she told me to try harder nxt time... i guess tis is e first time she ever said tt... normally she would start scolding me... but my dad is rite... im slacking too much... so im gonna work much much harder...

daddy said tt im not a leader... im a follower... is it true??? even i myself is unsure of tt... maybe i realli am... haiz...

shouyi became my gor today!!! i hope he will be nicer to his mei frm now on((: diane is goin to gimme a bdae present tt will make me angry.... hmmm.... she told gillian but she doesnt wanna tell me ))): wad if it's sumting horrible????

2006-05-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

finally got time to post le(: lots of stuff happened recently... starting from yesterday after school, i've been really not hyper

talk bout today first larh... PE made me really tired... sighs... im bad at badminton... i dont tink i want to take PE le... but ppl seem really enthu bout me taking PE.. haahaa... friday's recess was always my favourite... but today, dey started singing "blahblah black sheep" when he came to the canteen... pls larh ppl, he dont even noe he is called blahblah -_-" yongjing and eunice went to e drinks stall cos eric was dere... yongjing patted eri and called him 'papa'... i tink eric told joseph bout it cos i saw eric toking to joseph, den joseph looked at us...then after school, i took bus home myself... qinghui sat on e bus wit mi... waited damn long before e bus came...

now. lets tok bout yesterday... i was very hyper during school... but after school... i saw him queuing at stall 6 (i tink) so i went to queue dere... den i saw iris at e next stall... then yongjing, matthew and mami wanted to do something... but i stopped dem... after tt, i didnt have appetite animore... so, i didnt eat anythng for lunch except a cup of lemonpeach tea... i onli had seaweed chicken for recess...then i left e damn ez- link card at e library... had to get down e bus to get it... before tt i told mami something... tt why he today kinda moody... but its onli a matter of time before he gets to noe it rite???

haiz.. not sure if all e decisions i made were rite... im getting realli confused rite now... i realli feel realli tired... tired of being happy becos of him... tired of being sad becos of him... i guess i shld have taken shar's advice... i shldnt have called him... i shldnt... but now. it is too late to regret. regret wad i 've done for e past few months. regret e decisions i 've made. im e cause of my own sorrow.misery.

many ppl are obsessed. mami (as usual), angela (condition is e worst), sher (condition starting to detour) and me. nxt week is level camp... i hardly will get to see him le

2006-05-02T18:28:00.000+08:00

although my mami (shikai aka nephew aka doodoo) says that i havent posted for a very long time... i cant do it todae... cos i got a chinese and maths test tomorrow... i dun lyk tests... sigh... i will post another time... (:

2006-04-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

tis is a song tt many of mii friends lyk.... mii, mii nephew, denise...

James Blunt - You're Beautiful
My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful, You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
cos ill never be with you
Yeah, she caught my eye, As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was, Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. you're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
cos ill never be with you
la la la la, la la la la, la la la la laaaaaa
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.

im sure mii nephew tinks tt SHE is beautiful. everybody tinks so. hahaa. to mii, HE is.... not beautiful... but nice... i dunno how to say larh...

2006-04-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to mau, happy birthday to mau, happy birthday to maureen, happy birthday to eu!!!!

2006-04-25T18:17:00.000+08:00

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.

my fren send mii tis... im not hardhearted larh.... strongwilled??? haahaa... 'Beautiful physically and mentally'... i lyk tt.... lolx... shy??? i dun tink so... sickness in e ear... i totally agree... i am DEAF. gd physical??? NO. i do not love literature and arts. haahaa... i lyk being at hme actually...

ppl complainin tt i so long nvr post le... i very busy one u noe?! haahaa... todae chao shuang de... mii, sherlyn, angela and eliz... wah, i tink we crazy le... haahaa.... ERIC BELONGS TO ELIZ, DONT SNATCH FROM HER!!! lolx... re-audition for choir.... ohnohnohno... i tink im gonna go to alto.... sobsob... my nephew's comin to choir(: diane wrote mii a testi!! yay!! i hope our class tee would be as nice as e way we wan it to be.... lookin 4ward to sec1 camp... clever ppl shld noe why....

2006-04-20T18:23:00.001+08:00

321 msgs!!!

im so dead... mi daddy say if nxt month still lyk tt or exceed... he gonna confiscate mi phone.... gotto stop smsing.... im so depressed... and i realised tt mi phone got NO FREE INCOMING CALLS... ohnohnohnohnohno.....

im realli depressed.... i failed my science test.... dont dare to tell mi mum.... i hope dont need to sign... i hope she wont remeber to scold mi bout my phonebill.... i hope i can 4get him... but it's not workin e way i want it to.... sobsob...

todae's valerie's bdae!!!
tomolo's yanting (my primary skool fwen)'s bdae!!!

2006-04-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

so.... the iris was a fake.... it was yvonne.... haiz... im quite stoopid oso lah.... believe that it was real.... actually i did consider tt it may be fake.... but dunno why i chose to believe it was true.... haha.... but i realli gonna give up le... after much consideration.... but im gonna do it step by step... i tried todae... i didnt look at his class durin flagraising.... i looked AWAY frm his class... but i still saw him.... cos he was standing at e other side of e parade sq.... haha.... then after skool... i saw him in e canteen doin hw.... not wif iris... yah... i realised he lyk to show his TEETH... yah.... that's why he is retarded.... haiz.... im not gonna help my nephew animore.... i dont want to give him hope and be guilty for his final disappointment.... i honestly rather gill tell him now once and for all.... i oso wish either iris or blahblah would come scold me... or tell me.... so i will give up..... chang tong bu ru duan tong..... haiz... lyk wat denise say.... he is very chi qing.... haiz....
wish me luck..

2006-04-12T18:13:00.000+08:00

i didnt see him todae.... but i will... tomorrow... he is takin part in one of e competitions tomorrow durin sports day!!! yay!!! have plenty of opportunities to see him... must search for double-a batteries... cos my cam battery flat!!!! URGH! any kind soul would spare me 2 batts??? juz 2??? haha.... we've a BIG plan tomorrow... i REALLY REALLY hope it will work out well... =) haiz... but what if it DOESNT???? must double-check everything again tomorrow... lolx... u may tink im crazy... but u're RIGHT!!! i am CRAZY =D

speakin of crazyness... i TOTALLY went bonkers when sum ppl saboed me for story-tellin competition... charmaine, dont bullshit k (not being rude)... my english isnt good at all lor.... for heavens sake... u all tink too highly of me liao.... i put up a 'big' fight wif mr tum and e class to show my LACK OF INTEREST in takin part... hahaha.... in e end... matthew and valerie is entering.... phew
i honestly have bad experiences in joinin story-tellin comp.... so dont make me... cos i will try all means to get myself out of it.... i will nvr join a story-tellin comp.... even if blahblah is takin part.... and dont ask me to tell a story on FLOWERS

yay!!! ccps open hse is on 30 june... gonna get to see almost everyone on that day!!!! yippee!!! but i forsee e band playin lyk shit... haha... not that i dont want to have confidence in them.... they MAKE me LOSE confidence in them.... their standard now is lyk.... i dont even understand what on earth they are playin... honestly... all thanks to sumbody... cannot say... later that person sue me.... haha

choir is goin to perform on speech day!!!! we're gonna sing..... sing..... sing..... e skool song.

diao... and we still have to wear that pink gown, court shoes, put on makeup and stuff... AIYO!!! jus skool song onli... cant we wear uniform???? haiz.... i guess i will cum to skool in stockings.... haiz....

kkz... i shall stop here... hav to go battery-hunting... sumei jus told me that they saw 2 FLOWERS.... sobsob

2006-04-11T18:14:00.000+08:00

todae was overall even GREATER than yesterday (=

i reached skool earlier than usual todae.... cos i took bus... so i left home early... but i was realli tired... i tot i saw my nephew (i wasnt wearing my specs), he was dere... sleepin... but i didnt realli bother, cos i was realli tired, i woke up at 2 in e morning, cos of a stoopid mosquito... i woke up scratching all over.... then at 3, i couldnt stand it animore, i went into e other rm, and woke my mum up... at first she ask me to sleep at e bottom of my sis bed, but my sis threatened to kick my head and face, so she went to bring my bed over... so i guess i onli went bk to sleep at bout...4???

i TOTALLY ENJOYED interaction period.... eu can ask yvonne.... hahaa.... i got a PURRFECT view of him.... but that was a little bad too.... cos he was acting REALLY RETARDED.... retarded looks... and ACTIONS!!!! OMG.... me and yvonne were laughin lyk mad.... but other than those flaws.... it was alright.... yah.... **dreamy** after that when we went for comp lesson, me and sherlyn walked by e other way... then i saw him in class.... and i saw iris in her class.... she was sittin RITE IN THE FRONT, in e middle.... but she quite tall leh.... not sure... aniwaes, me and sherlyn had a great time addin lots of names to our flash animation... includin blahblah's.... lolx

but jin xin had to go and spoil my happy mood.... when i was tokin to my nephew... she went to PULL my hair REALLI HARD... jus to ask me what me and gillian discussed bout the chinese skit that day.... call me oso no need to lyk that rite???? i got MAD and yelled at her, but not as loud as what i did to matthew.... then she started actin realli fed up and stuff... lyk it is ALL MY FAULT. what the hell.... i tink she is much more AP than blahblah.... yup, and matthew wrote 'bla bla black sheep' on e board... lolx.... and ms tang caught me sayin shit during geog... i tink.... she commented that it was realli.... realli..... i 4got le lah.... nvm

kk, i tink todae's a fairly long post... shall stop here.... other details can find out frm me (=

2006-04-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

the day started great...

when i came to skool... i saw blahblah on e way to class.... he walked past me... haha... im obsessed again... haiz... then later, i pull sherlyn go to canteen... then we saw e australian students and we saw him walking out of the canteen.... then sherlyn said, "he's coming, let's go back" and i didnt noe why i said yes... yup... then later after morning annoucements, e principal welcum the australian students... then he was standing with someone i noe.... yah... spend the whole morning seeing him...

after that i got really fed up wif matthew.... cos he pulled my hairs 4 times todae.... chi bao fan mei shi zuo.... then i oso scolded chihsiong bout what he wrote in his blog... haha... he very bad... who says girls cant join bball??? and our class is NOT pathetic... we got 2nd for the class competition thingy... not sure what is it called... yup...

my nephew was crabby todae.... he was really upset.... can tell.... although i dunno why is he upset.... haiz... poorguy.... after that... something happened that i do not wish to mention... yup.... so dont try to make me.... i wont tell =p.... lookin 4ward to 2morrow's SC period.... lolx.... they say dunno wat more SCs will be joinin each class.... i hope he come our class=) bless me....

2morrow oso got science test.... jiayou.... wish me luck

2006-04-04T18:22:00.000+08:00

i saw blahblah and his gf at e library.... they were sitting in front of me for lyk... 1 hour??? im heartbroken.... sobsob.... he gave many faces.... the raise-eyebrow, day-dreaming... and staring at his gf one.... argh..... i wish i was e lucky one... diane's a really nice senior... she cares bout me... yah... thanks diane... muahmuah.... haiz... my poor nephew... let matthew hit so many times on e head... later he becum 'gong'.... haha... lolx... still no gorgor yet... haiz.... i want to quit FPS.... RS so slack one.... haiz.... dont lyk lifeskills too.... sian.... bad day todae.... tired**

2006-04-04T07:48:00.000+08:00

poor melissa.... i cant believe r2 actually said that... he doesnt look lyk that sort of person... haiz.... ren bu ke mao xiang.... havin computer lessons now.... haiz... i guess i'll jus post a short entry... then i shall concentrate on e lesson.... mdm wu is quite a nice teacher.... attention: charmaine lost her makeup kit... i tink she left it in the AVT.... anyone saw it??? my dear nephew is missing monkey.... must learn to let things go... some things are jus not meant to be.... i wish i can help him.... but i dunno how to.... i cant even help myself lah... haiz.... lookin 4ward to SC interaction.... saw blahblah at e parade sq and in e foyer todae.... haiz.....

2006-04-01T18:09:00.000+08:00

went bk for band pract todae, AGAIN... somehow felt sabo-ed... the SAC band seniors were there... i was e odd one out... was very mad at shar... haiz.... i noe tis isnt on purpose... but i jus got really upset...

yesterday's choir performance was great!!!! thanks for all e flowers!! i shall nvr 4get that matthew gave me a white flower, he said that e more white roses i get, e faster i will die... -_-" yups... and my dear nephew gave gill 2 roses... i wonder if i didnt ask him bout e flowers, would he dare to give... haiz.. but in e end we were lyk cheering when he gave e flowers... that was so sweet... aw.... shouyi gave gill a rose... but nvr give me... sobsob.... it ended off nicely i guess... :)

blahblah was sick yesterday... he went bk to e hostel after morning's opening ceremony... poorthing... hope he get well soon.... bless him....

2006-03-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

genevieve is currently looking for a 'gorgor'

requirements:

nice person

a BOY

sec2 and above

interested candidates can leave a msg at e tagboard (e last heart) or go to sec1F classrm to look for 'genevieve'. thank you=)

p.s. i am not kidding

2006-03-27T18:20:00.000+08:00

e beginning of todae was bad... it all started when i realised that i lost my pencil and choir file; i left it at e AVT... how careless of me... then again, when im very pissed off by my own prob, i didnt give a damn to care bout my nephew's stuff.. sigh... he's always e victim when im in a bad mood...then things got worse when sara actually told mingjie (in a sarcastic way) that i lyk shouyi... wth... i noe she was just trying to help.. but i honestly rather she say i lyk blahblah or dont even say lah... anyway, thanks for trying to help sara...

afterwards, things started to change for the better.... diane helped me ask weirui if she saw my stuff, and weirui actually help me take it, that's so nice of her! gillianlee is a bad girl, she told diane that i lyk shouyi, then diane told louis, then louis was lyk... stunned. haha.. but after i told diane that i dont and she believed me (wat a relief!) when i was very pissed off... i felt very tired, and i said that i want to 4get blahblah... charmaine suggested that i shld change target... wth... that will make me start my nonsense all over again... what a GOOD advice... but when i wasnt pissed off anymore... i realised that saying is much much more easier than doing... so i tot that i shld jus 4get bout 4geting....lolx...

i was hearing the black eyed peas song "my humps" jus now... while doing hw... elizabeth was e one who told me bout the song... yah... then i realised that e song is really sick... haha... but the beat is nice... recently i started hearing english songs... i dont noe why... but i will always hear tis jay chou song, it's called "feng".. i shall provide u all wif e lyrics...

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影我聆听沉积已久的心情星星透明就像美丽的风景走在回忆里才看的清被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我我用力牵起没温度的双手过往温柔已经被时间上锁只剩挥散不去的难过

*chorus
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天金黄的到天边被风掠过像你的容颜我把爱烧成了落叶却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前爱你穿越时间两行泪只求我的眼泪让爱散透了地面我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我我用力牵起没温度的双手过往温柔已经被时间上锁只剩挥散不去的难过

再想要剪开一夜风雨随着北风凋零我轻轻摇曳风铃想唤醒被遗弃的爱情雪花已铺满了地谁把窗外枫叶已经沉迷

its a very nice song... yup, i guess that's all for todae... i didnt get to see blahblah todae, hope to see him tomorrow.. :)

2006-03-25T11:05:00.000+08:00

now doin sci ws and history essay.... really hate hw.... i dont lyk wkends nowadays... coz of my frenz and blahblah.... haha.... i spread my love bug to mo mo ren too.... lolx.... i dont wanna do hw.... i wanna play.... 1 more wk to choir performance.... very excited and nervous... scared i zou yin... haha... wonder blahblah is comin to watch choir... i doubt so... haha.... i am really obsessed... at e same time makin myself miserable.... sobsob.....

2006-03-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

struggling through my history essay... im stuck at e 2nd para... and i tink it sucks lor... im so lookin 4ward to dhs 50th anniversary opening ceremony!!! =D hahaha... lol... and i noe who is iris le... i was quite disappointed.. not gonna say why... msg to maureen: im so not jealous of iris lor!! dread hw... diane ask me go her church on sat... but all e hw not done... i doubt can... sobsob... jiayou ppl...

2006-03-21T16:09:00.000+08:00

who the hell is iris????? M604 M604 M604!!!!! I CANT GET TIS OUT OF MY HEAD!!!! todae's interaction period is really really SCARY!!!! stoopid shouyi!!! keep bothering me! urgh!!! i 4got to ask charmaine to do her forfeit!!! must get that in my head.... yay!!! renfred got into da jue sai!!!! who is iris????? what class is she in???? i want to stay in e hostel!!!! UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2006-03-15T17:21:00.000+08:00

valerie (my baby cousin) is going bk todae... my aunt dont want to let my mum babysit le.... coz of some conflict btw the both of them... sigh.... why are adults so stubborn??? she now complaining on the phone to my other aunt... im not sure whether valerie leave is good or bad... my mum will have more time for me... recently she very busy with valerie... but valerie is really cute... cant bear to let her leave.... again... tis is called jin tui liang nan... i really really tired todae... keep running and running and running... my stamina very lan.... we went to KFC for lunch todae... then our conductor (mr tay) went to mcdonalds.... after that we were lyk late for afternoon choir... then we ran bk to skool... so unfair... mr tay cut through e hostel... while we have to walk one big round bk... so tired... then later on my way home... i saw a HUGE chameleon on the path... i was SO scared that i ran bk to jiaxing hse e bus stop... to wait for it to go away... but an old uncle saw e chameleon and chased it away... it ran onto the road... then i quickly ran all e way home.... lolx.... im really feeling extremely tired...... exhausted... what else? oh ya! i heard that ppl who stay in e hostel eat breakfast, lunch and dinner together... i also want to stay in e hostel!!!! then everyday get to see blahblah at least 3 times!!!! melissa kept looking and smiling at 'R2' todae ... very scary... lolx... diane's coming bk from melbourne tomorrow!!! i sort of miss her.... she is a very nice senior.... and i miss blahblah too!!!! i didnt see him todae, even though there was CO pract.... tomorrow going to rivervalley high... sigh.... going to do some sports i tink... sian...

comments for todae:
#1 i saw yingteng and chihsiong todae, AGAIN!
#2 shouyi (elliot's chairperson) is a bad bad bad guy!!!
#3 im missing many ppl, u shld noe who's on e top of e list... =P

2006-03-14T14:41:00.000+08:00

mmmm... yumyum... eating my luchie rite now... tom yam noodles... ooohlala... very spicy... but very yummy... mummy havent come bk yet... sigh... so lonely at hme.... but nvm... can play computer... ye man bu cuo de... a thought came into my mind... maybe down the road... when time goes by... i may not lyk blahblah that much anymore... is just a sudden crazy overwhelming crush... i guess.. since nothing can or will happen... i shldn't tell him that i lyk him... but very funny... my old frens say i shld jus tell him.... but my new frens say i shldnt.... sigh.... tis is called jing tui liang nan!!! very chim rite? lol... finally finish lunch le... now drinking yummyyummy yoghurt drink... mixed berries... purple in color... nice color... but my fave color is pink... my new blogskin is finally done!!! and my taggie board tou tai liao!!! so must continue tagging... i dont ppl flooding my tagboard... =) todae is a not bad day....

comments to make:
#1 i saw ying teng and chih siong!!! NPCC
#2 my choir seniors are NICE... most of them =)
#3 KOKA tomyam noodles are really NICE.... but really SPICY...

2006-03-14T13:39:00.000+08:00

i saw blahblah this morning.... he was talking to baojia... amelia told me that his gf in vball... but she still dont want to tell me who she is... sighsigh.... hope i see him 2moro.... 2moro got CO anot... sobsob... chatting with cas now..... she is refusing to go read my blog.... she playing maple right now.... i jus screamed... coz she naughty naughty... im feeling bored.... um... now she say that she wants to smack me.... & she say i very suan ppl... want roy to grow taller... hahahahahahahaha.... im very lame.... hehe... post later... cant concentrated when im talking to cassie......

2006-03-13T16:42:00.000+08:00

i have to go for jaw surgery, but not now... only when im 15 or 16, when i stop growing..... what e hell..... wait until then.... blahblah gonna graduate le.... somemore doctor say my condition may worsen.... go hell lah.... why am i so problematic??? i jus born that time have to go operation.... already so ex le... now still say i need to go jaw operation... my parents where got so much money to pay for surgery???? f***k... why am i forever getting these type of weird sicknesses that results in long term MC??? i feel that lady luck is drifting away from me.... 100m/s.... what shit is this..... crap...... i am feeling crappy todae.... tis morning went bk to primary skool.... for holiday band practice.... wa liao... only 3 percussionists turned up..... the rest si dao na li qu liao? but my juniors still as cute as before... lolx.... my junior got new hp.... is e sonyericsson walkman phone... so cool sia... my phone so lan.... sigh.... waste my time going for stoopid checkup... in e end cant do anything at all.... make me miss e very 1st class outing... what e hell.... what shit have i gotten into.... plus im starting to miss all my frens and blahblah le.... im gonna suffer from a sleepless nite again... last nite couldnt sleep... play wif my drumsticks until 12 midnite then fall asleep... i feel so tired right now... i tink i have to change my blogskin le... got abit of problem... sigh... todae is bad day... crappy day...

2006-03-12T17:07:00.000+08:00

now i finally noe that blahblah plays dizi.... hmmm... he playing that time sure very cute one... maybe will look lyk hamster....oh....so cute....jus lyk shikai...heeheeheehee.....lolx... uuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh..... now the more i want to go for CO concert....sobsob....sigh..... anybody wants EDS ticket???? EDS is very nice one.... actually.... i rather watch EDS.... but for the sake of watching him... i wanna go CO.... sighsigh... even if i joined CO also cannot play dizi...... and what if he not performing? then i waste my money..... and why did he give valerie ang (someone frm his class) a RED scarf...... why the colour RED???? but if he give me present... i wouldnt mind any colour lah...honestly....lol....im jealous that that valerie girl got a present frm him.... i also want!!!! until now... i still dont understand.... why do i lyk him.... i was frm a convent skool... got NO boys... except for hearing impaireds.... and i used to hate boys.... why is he so shuai?????? make me fall in love wif him..... make me go gaga at the sight of him..... why..... why cant i be prettier???? why cant i be 16??????

2006-03-12T11:29:00.000+08:00

my apologies..... sorri... i miss sherlyn, angela, eunice, maureen, clarissa, maybe charmaine, denise, valerie, tongwei, elizabeth, sara, usan, audrey and last but the least... gillianlee... hahahahaha.... speak of being evil.... on the top i miss unoewho... hahahahahahahaahahahahahaha.... decipher it urself.... no offence for all those ppl i 4got to include.... im abit siao rite now... my sis very noisy... haha.... keep pestering me.... muahahahahaha...
p.s. hope you guys have a gd holiday... must slack hor...lolx

2006-03-11T13:20:00.000+08:00

holidays are nice and not nice.... nice becoz can dont study.... can slack.... or be couch potato.... not nice becoz always get one whole pile of holiday homework... all the teachers damn evil one lor... and i juz realised that i wont get to see blahblah for 1 week and 2 days...sobsob.... i wonder if he ever comes out of his hostel during holidays... i hope so... then choir pract that time will get to see him... =)... i tink i shall not gao bai... juz leave things lyk that can already... act crazy trying to wait for him to appear... got some sort of guaiguai motivation to go to school...maybe... to love someone is even better than being loved...understand? very chim rite? lol... actually i shouldnt ask if blahblah's gf is pretty...he choose gf definitely choose pretty one lah... then choose ugly one meh... i very diao leh... i'm slacking rite now...

2006-03-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

charmaine has a big mouth... a really BIG one... i've learn a lesson not to tell her any more secrets... coz she will spill the beans... she told AMELIA and SHOU YI (1e class chairperson) that i lyk blahblah... she said his REAL name out lor...urgh!!! charmaine is even worse than matthew.... sobsob... amelia dont want to tell me who is blahblah's girlfren... she scared later that girl bei da... very funny lor... i'm only sec 1 leh... you tink my mind got so corrupted meh? i wont hit her lah... but now i noe he is DHP... so i'll get to see him for another 2 more years...yay!!! i dont care... i'm gonna become SC!!! i must! =D i saw blahblah twice today... he really walk damn slow man... angela finished 2 cup of milkshake le then he appear... but he very poor thing leh... he brought his own food for recess... not sure what's that... but i tink it's porridge or smething... then me and eunice went to walk past him(on purpose)... when we got to the middle of the canteen... eunice say," let me show you how da pai ppl walk (she was trying to imitate blahblah)" then he turned and see us... i was so embarrassed.... recess he was eating with a GIRL...(whichever girl he sits with or talk to, angela or sherlyn will say that she is his gf)... during lunch he sat with roy.... (the stoopid guy siting in front of my table so tall... block my view x) lolz) today PE play basketball... shi kai, angela and zongyi is gd!! chih siong damn lan at basketbal lor...honestly(no offence)... during LA mr tum sang for us... some song called "could have been"... denise and gillian recorded his singing... at e beginning when he sang... me and valerie were laughing... but after that okay le... his singing not bad la... honestly.... a comment to end of, richard shld be counselled.. he is so sick (as in pervertic)!
P.S. sherlyn, sorri i went online so late...

2006-03-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

am i so not likeable? maureen and sherlyn says that i shld forget blahblah... then they 'pushed' me to shikai... now he's lyk avoiding me lor.... please lah, for heaven's sake... dont lyk me also dont need lyk that rite? this shows how 'popular' i am lor... so unlikeable.... i guess i shall stick with blahblah.... and shikai, if you see this... can you stop...um... can you stop lyk trying to avoid me? pls.... yah... i'm lyk so depressed today... i only saw blahblah once... from lyk quite far away... and all thanks to melissa... matthew now knows who is blahblah... who cares lah.. i'm so fed up today...=( hope i will see blahblah tomorrow... is he in class comm???

2006-03-08T16:37:00.000+08:00

things didnt go the way i wanted it to.... this morning i saw blahblah at canteen... but roy was with him... so i didnt get a chance... sigh.... later, eliz made me miserable... she said that i will get to see blahblah quite often soon... but she didnt tell me why... she say she promised smeone not to tell.... i was racking my brains... urgh!!! then valerie, gillianlee and denisetay rounded the anger and frustration of by not being serious in fps... we only got 1 solution... why is everyone against me???? but angela and eunice made me laugh lyk siao on the bus lah... so im ok... but i was really A.P. to sharshar just now... all thanks to valerie, denisetay and gillianlee... i wasted all my time and tears on them... freaking hell.... why am i so boy crazy.... why do i like blahblah? since when have i started to like him?i really dont know.... msg to denisetay: you so curious to know rite? let me tell you! i was suppose to biao bai to blahblah! tomorrow... at least i tink i was supposed to! happy now? anyway, shikai( my nephew)... im really sorri that i scolded you for nothing just now... at least i tink i did... sorri k? everything made me so A.P. tears are flooding my eyes... overflowing onto my cheeks... and what im saying is true...

2006-03-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

latest news!!!! im gonna gao bai to blahblah 2molo!!! in the morning!!! wish me luck!!!!!

2006-03-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

me again... i did something really really bad... i cant believe that i actually did that... it wasnt done by maureen, sherlyn or angela!!! it was just me!!! OOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! and i dont what valerie and gillian did... i hope they didnt do anything.... i cannot regret le... its too late... will blahblah noe its me??? i hope so and hope not... urgh!!! im so fickled minded... sigh.... but i still hope to see blahblah tomorrow.... by e way, i saw blahblah a total of 7 times today!!! and i got 14/16 for history essay! yay! hope i'll see blahblah... wish me luck =)

2006-03-07T11:13:00.000+08:00

i was happy... because i saw blahblah 5 times today!!! but the stoooopid boys go spoil my mood.... I DO NOT LIKE CHIH SIONG!!!! i only like blahblah.... =( ....... they tell me to gao bai.... im scared... like what charmaine say... i sure last minute back out one.... sigh...sob.... how? i dunno wat to do..... =( should i gao bai to blahblah??? maureen say cadmus got one girl gao bai lehz.... sigh....

2006-03-06T18:07:00.000+08:00

today is bad bad day... i did not see blahblah... so i am sad.... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... i am mad too... as in 'siao'... lolx... anyway, ireally hope to see blahblah 2molo... denisetay so bad.. dont let me interview blahblah... sighs...sighs... and more sighs... i am bored.... msg to my old classmates: blahblah is shuai, okay?! dont say "eeeeeeeeeee!" when you see him... Hmph! dont friend you all le... hahaha.. im so lame today... yeppy... what my nephew said was rite... sigh...

2006-03-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

today is jiaxing's bday... went to her hse... i showed my old friends blahblah's pic... then they all said "eeeeeeeeeee!" sobs... he very ugly meh.... maybe in that pic lah... dunno leh.... just smsed my nephew... he comin to school 2molo... that means he okay already lah... phew! 2molo got maths test... wish me luck.... hope i'll see blahblah 2molo... =D

2006-03-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday got choir, so nvr post... today, let me talk bout yesterday's interesting stuff 1st... i saw blahblah 3 times yesterday... 3 times leh!!! once in e morning, twice in the afternoon during lunchtime... he walked past our table then eliz suddenly called, hai wo sia dao... then i turned and saw him.. he saw me too.. then i accidentally said omg abit too loud... i think he heard... today saw him during choir pt (choir physical training)... he was walking out of hostel... he saw me and SMILED... then i SCREAMED...... can you believe it... i think he see me so many times... he shld know le.... *blushing* hahahahahahahaha... you must think that im obsessed rite? not really... just that he's very the gd looking lor... heehee.... oh ya, my nephew's illness very serious leh... poor thing... i kinda think it's my fault coz that time only i was sick... hope he recover soon... no one call me ahma abit bu xi guan leh...( i very qian bian rite =p)

2006-03-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

2day got back malay test le... 1 mistake!! if not i'll get full marks... urghhh!! i spreaded my germs to my nephew, he today absent.. haha... who ask him keep calling me "ah ma" so irritating.. nvr see blahblah today... sobsob... hahaha.... today my laughter very kong bu... according to angela and charmaine... heehee... i'm very lame today... 2molo LA test... wish me luck***

2006-02-28T18:23:00.000+08:00

most of today was bad. most of it. blahblah actually walked past our class, and i didn't get to see him!! *sobs* eunice they all saw lor... thanks to forgetful gillian lee, suddenly forgot who blahblah was... sighs... sharshar was supposed to come to my hse today, but i couldn't contact her (that girl hp always no battery one). LA test on thursday, sian lah... my english already so bad le, LA would be even worse... by the way, zheng lao shi say our class chinese test highest only 88 leh! how??? i wish i'm the lucky one... heehee

hello

2006-02-25T18:31:00.000+08:00

this is the first time im writing a blog!

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After so long.

thursday; supposedly doing chinese project

hello

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